From MY-Side

On my mind

2011-12-03T01:49:00.001+08:00

Actually I was quite emo the last few days... confused and lost....
too many things happen in the last few weeks, too many drama and too many problems...
Sometimes Its my own fault....

I just want to speak out my feelings and concern, I don't regret any of my actions.
Maybe you think I'm wrong about things, wrong about you all.
Maybe you think that I'm too stubborn to change and accept others and other cultures.
Maybe you think that I'm a abnormal person.

In a group of people, you will notice there are people that are closer together than others. This is a fact, people with the same "frequency" will be better friends and form a smaller but closer circle. I'm not saying that this isn't true.

But sometimes its better to get out of the circle and interact with others. Interact with others that you don't feel comfortable, maybe you'll see the other side of them. Maybe you all tried, if that is the case that, great job =).
If not, at least give them a chance, and don't shut yourself down.

I also got this problem and I admit it, and I know I'm not trying hard enough.

A good friend is worth a thousand friends

I'm not a closed minded person, I can accept some things that I believed in.

But somethings I really think is meaningless.
I don't understand what's the fun of inflicting physical pain on others?
I don't believe it will improve your relationship, I just think you all do it for fun.
I admit it will be fun plus you got the chance for revenge if you want, , but its painful for the other person.
But I still believe its pointless,
you can still do it on me, but I will NEVER inflict it on others.
Then you will say I don't dare to play, I'm too closed minded...bla bla bla....
If I want to play I can also gila gila....
But somethings I just don't think its good at all...

Change is good, but never lose yourself in the process.....

All these things was in my mind the last week, sort of made me "emo"....

What made my day was when a friend post on my wall

"Xiang Zhi Tan Expect the unexpected, never expect the expected =)"

I was quite surprised when she posted it on my wall. The only other people I heard they talk about this are AFSer~. ya...14 more days and it had been a year.

this quote is like a sentence that can solve everything, it can explain everything because it explained the unknown, the uncertainty, and the future.

The moment, I saw this wall post, I laugh and decided to just do be happy as nothing is unexpected when you expect the unexpected.

Life is like a roller coaster that not stops moving~

Because of you

2011-09-25T05:06:00.000+08:00

Because of you....I want to change....

You...
I don't know where you are...
I don't know when I'll ever meet you....
I don't know if I already meet you....
I don't know if I every going to meet you...
I don't know if you're person I know now...

But, I know if you meet me now, you won't want me...

That's why because of you, I want to change..
Change all those bad habits I have now...
Change all the things girls won't like about me...
Change how I treat people
Change my laziness
Change my attitude to study
Change myself to be more responsible
Change myself to be better in leading people
Change myself to become a better man...

They say never change yourself for a girl, its not worth it...

I'm not changing for a girl...
I'm changing for you....

Because of you...

Because of you, you deserve a better me~

I just hope you'll know =)

Expect the unexpected....

2011-09-21T01:01:00.003+08:00

"Expect the unexpected"
....I probably the most meaningful quote I ever hear in my life time.

Maybe there are people out there who has hear this quote over and over again...
But, this quote sort of changed me...

The first time I heard of this quote, was at the AFS Pre-depature camp on the day, I was leaving Malaysia.
The explanation for the quote actually quite simple, by expecting the unexpected, you'll be expecting everything out there

But, I like to add another sentence to this quote...

"Expect the unexpected, NEVER expect the expected"
the word "expected" means a lot of different things here...

It means hope and fantasy that most likely WONT HAPPEN......

When we think about something, we wont think about the worst case scenario...
We'll think about the best case scenario...
We'll think how great and wonderful is it....and hope for it to happen~

But those "expected" things never really happen.....
So.....

"Expect the unexpected, never expect the expected...."

Random Thoughts

2011-09-15T01:17:00.002+08:00

A friend of mine( I actually miss her a lot, but she is a far far away..) once said this....

"People said I look mature and do everything myself,

not that I want it...I want to be childish and play a lot but when come solving things, I have to be mature...."

I don't remember when she told me this, but I sort of agree with it. If you don't have a childish heart, you won't enjoy life to the fullest..

But what about love? Should you be a childish kid or a mature man?

I haven't been this crazy for a girl in a long time. It's actually true...after meeting her, I actually think about her A LOT!!!!!! Can't let her go out of my mind, I can't even think of other things...
She just kept on jumping into my thoughts!!!!

It just happen too fast and too quick...

I don't even have her HP number....

I think I deserve a chance... =)

College 2nd Semester 2nd Week

2011-09-06T18:35:00.000+08:00

Just the second week into my second semester, and all the things that are happening at the same time...are going to drive me crazy!!!

Let's talk about the courses I am taking...

1) Calculus with Analytic Geometry II
The killer subject, according to my seniors. Statistics has shown that nearly 50% of the students drop the class after the first test and only 50% of the remaining students pass the course. So, only 25% of the students going to survive this course.

I admit my calculus suck, I still can't see much of its use in life. I don't believe the fact that all those complicated equations exist in real life. If I can't excel or at least pass this subject, how am I going to be a successful engineer or economist(if I want la)?

2) General Chemistry I
I feel I don't know a lot of things the lecturer thought in class today. With all those scientific terms and meaning, as a science student, I don't really know a lot of the chemicals on the periodic table. To be honest, I still can't really understand most of the concepts behind chemistry.

Hope this subject won't kill me....

3) Introduction to Psychology
You maybe thinking.... Psychology. It's just the study of human. Then you are definitely wrong, Psychology got so many branch and theorems. With all those definition that need to memorize, and examples. Even the first 2 chapters are jammed with argument and ideas on how humans function as an individual.

I hate memorizing things....but I'm forced to...

4) Introduction to Computer and Information processing
I thought I will like this subject when I enroll for it, thinking it will be a walk in the park for me, as I ONCE thought I know a lot about computer.

The ugly truth? I hardly know anything computer. I mean the real names of things, for example when we talk about disks we called them CD, and the machine reading it CD-ROM , but the truth is CD-ROM is the real name for the disk and the CD-ROM drive is real name for the device reading the CD-ROM....

There also a lot of things, I only know a bit there and here, which I consider I know nothing.

5) Introduction to Microeconomics
The study of how people use limited resources to fulfill unlimited wants. Sound easy? but I think I need to memorize a lot of things about it. I got interest in it, so I think it should be ok for me. Plus the test are mostly in Multi Choice Questions (MCQ). Isn't it great?

Sometimes I ask myself....
Why we cannot study about things we like and care of in college?
Why we must follow the study guide that they provided?
Why we must only study things that can score an A+ easily but you hardly have interest in it?
Why I can't study what I want?

I'm scared....

2011-09-04T01:04:00.002+08:00

*I promise this will be last sad and emo post le about relationships, unless something else happens~

Loving a girl is like making her the most important person in your life.
But how many guys really did it?

I once loved a girl...but to be honest, I didn't do anything special for her. Looking back, I see myself as a jerk that doesn't understand girls. I see myself as a childish ignorant kid that doesn't understand love. Only when you lose it, you only understand how important she is in your life.
That was the past and years have passed since....

Between now and then, a few girls stepped into my heart...
But I never won their hearts...

Until now....

A story that very few people know..and very few people will understand...
A story that I hope she will never know and never understand...

I remember the first day I saw her, She stood out from the others, she has a smile that can brighten your day.
As time passes.... I slowly see a lot of similarity between us, the way we're raised, the way we think and others. Slowly she conquered my heart.....

But, I never got the guts to take the first step....
I was scared that I will never succeed..
I was scared of problems that will come out in the future....
I was scared she will never accept me..
since why should she?

I'm not someone special...
I'm just an ordinary kid around the block...

A kid that complains a lot...
A kid that talking before thinking..
A kid that is stupid
A kid that is bad at talking
A kid that doesn't deserve to be loved...

I always think I'm special or handsome...
But the truth is that
I'm never the most handsome guy in college..
I'm not the most popular person in college..
I'm not the smartest person in college...
I'm not a good friend nor a good listener...
I'm nothing...
I'm only a B compare to others.....

Soon....she found her true love somewhere else....

The most painful part of loving someone isn't being rejected by someone..
But seeing her with someone else...

Knowing that the lucky guy isn't you...
Knowing that all the fantasy with her can never come true...
Knowing that you just hit the wall....
Knowing that....It's never going to happen...

That's when you have to wake up from all those stupid dreams you have and face the reality...

I never knew until I saw the way she reacts with that guy, I never thought that she will be with him...
That day was probably the saddest day I have in months...I hold back my feelings and shoved it into the deepest part of my heart...
The second day, I asked her....and she said she is in a relationship with that guy...

The moment she told me that, I started to laugh, maybe laughing at how stupid I was..
I was sad and happy at the same time....
I wanted to tell her how I felt about her, but the best she should never know...
Seeing her happy with him, is the best thing I can do and slowly forget about her...

Time is the best medicine...

But the other question is....
Why don't dare to take the first step...

I don't think I'm ready to love someone...
I scare I cannot do what a good boyfriend should do...
I scare I cannot make her feel special
I scare I will repeat the same mistake again, and hurt another girl...
I scare I will hurt someone again...

I'm scared....

My Movie Genre

2011-09-01T16:58:00.000+08:00

Everyone loves movies....I mean EVERYONE...

Its sort of an escape for our dull and normal life, and let us imagine things beyond our imagination.

Movies let our wildest dream come true~

But every year thousands of movie come to our theater and which on to choose?

For me I choose it according to this chart

- Love means movie that I like

- Hate means....its self-explained

- Stupid means movie that are for no brainer

- Smart means movies that can give you a headache after the movie

Lets see.....

I like Michael Bay's movies, but their are stupid, besides the "bang, bang,bang"...there are nothing special about it.

Then Christopher Nolan's movies are great and make you think so much, your heads going to come out..example, Inception, how many people have to discuss with others to understand the whole movie.

......

NEVER EVER BRING ME TO WATCH HORROR FILMS!!!!!!

I think they are stupid and the only reason someone to see horror films is to scare a girl into holding their hands

I don't like anything happen before the 1900.. so those movies about cowboys, roman gladiator, ancient people.....is a NO NO

Another type of movies I can't stand are movies with terrible CG...If you can't afford the budget don't do it...I seen movies with less budget and good CG... Even youtube videos sometimes make better CG then some movies...

Any movie with Action is watchable for me... I don't think any action movie can fail to entertainment people.

Romance...

For a guy, I really like stories about sweet love stories. As long it ends on a happy note...

Maybe it is because I wish those stories can happen to me, and that guy can be me.

I have a bad habit of jumping around when watching romance movies... I just can't stay at spot and when bad things happen, I just close my eyes and don't want to see it~

So, anyone want to go watch movie with me?

p/s I kept on typing see movie instead of watch movie

Love

2011-08-30T19:17:00.000+08:00

Love....There is a lot of different kind of loves out there...

how a person love his/her friends...

how a person love his family...

how a person love his hobby..

how a person love his...something...

But when we talk about love

The first thing that come into our mind

the love between 2 people that cannot live without each other

Everyone wants love and they deserve it.

But what is hard about love is finding the right person.

For a single guy (yes, that me...I'm single...for a very long time..), love is everything I hope for. But things just never happen they way you wanted, most of the times its my fault.

I'm not an expert in this thing. I only have 1 relationship before, and it ended terribly. So, why am I talking here like an expert? Because I want to convince myself (yes, this post is for me...)

My Friends always say that I'm think to much when come to girls. I actually think everything, from being together all the way until death. I want to know if we can last or not. I want think about how can we live together in the future. What kinds of problem, I'll face if we are together those sort of things..

And I have some rules about girl friends...

RULE 1: Never become the 3rd Person...

Explanation : If a girl has a boyfriend, its off-limits.

Reason : Who loves love triangles? the 3rd person is always the bad guy...

RULE 2: The Platinum Rule

Explanation : One should never date someone seen on a regular basis, e.g. someone at the same workplace, a next door neighbor, etc. because such relationships never work out in the end and lead to never-ending suffering, as those involved would see each other constantly. Proposed by Barney Stinson

Reason : Let's say that you are in a relationship with a classmate, then you two broke up, but you still have to see him/her everysingle day for class....how awkward can it be?

RULE 3: The Rebound Guy~

Explanation : if a girl had just broken up in the last month, its off-limits. Maybe she just use you as an replacement or just to win her break-up

Reason : You never know if she/her really loves you....

RULE 4: The Cooling down...

Explanation : According to science, love can be see as a hormone induced reaction that can make you make un-rasional decision. The hormone will make you think she/he is perfect by making you unaware of flaws. The hormone will wear off in a few months..

Reason : Don't do un-rasional decision...

RULE 5: Never stop believing...

Explanation : There are 6 billion people out there....you will find your one....SOON

So, am I too picky? or I just think and consider too much?

A trip around Kuala Lumpur

2011-08-27T01:00:00.000+08:00

For years I have lived in Klang Valley, A gigantic area along the Klang River, but even we live here...We seldom got the chance to see the tourist attraction here. All we know is shopping..shopping..shopping..

If you ask any local where can you find any shopping malls, they will know the answer...
Pavilion la~ Sg.Wang la~ Times Square la~ 1 U la~ Sunway la~ and bla bla bla....

If you ask any local where can you find food...they also know answer la..
Food is everywhere in Malaysia, just which is better..

If you ask any local where can you visit tourist attraction....they only know a few
most common one...KLCC and KL tower( you can see it in the skyline, everyone will see it....)

There actually a lot of places to visit and sight seeing in KL...all you need is just a pair of legs....

So, I took my time and went around KL, visiting places and being a tourist~

Masjid Negara (National Mosque)

Its the nation's mosque, and on normal days, you actually can go inside and visit... For a non-Islam, its actually quite an eye opener, see how a mosque is in the inside, there even people explaining the meaning's of the word and design of the mosque...

Someone explaining the Jawi words to German tourist..

The Inside of the mosque...

Muzium Negara(National Museum)

For a Malaysian, there not much to see here...most of things we already read in our history text book..

If you didn't read it before, it explain to you the history of Malaysia from the stone age to 21st Century.

if you a foreigner that want to know more about Malaysia, you can drop by...

if you a Malaysia, there is not much to seee

The side view of the museum

See anything unusual with this photo? if you're a know mandarin, you notice it...

Why the word Huan Ying is written in Ping Ying but not mandarin(欢迎)

National Planetarium

It is located just next to the nation museum, not much to see and do. It explains how astronomy started and our solar system. They also have small experiments that you can try out. Good for kids but maybe not adults.

There are also movies shown about space exploration every hour, the movies are projected on a gigantic dome. I haven't been to much Planetarium around the globe,so I have no idea its good or not.

Dataran Merdeka & Banguan Sultan Ismail

I won't say there is anything to see except the building and the big flag pole at the end of the field.
Banguan Sultan Ismail was the old administration building during the British Administration, you can see a very strong influence of European style in it.

Dataran Merdeka is the field where for years was where our National Day Celebration took plcae. A field in the middle of the city.

I love this photo, its so real...a guy looking away and his girlfriend taking a photo of him...

The gigantic flag pole at the end of Dataran Merdeka. I once heard that the flag flying on top is the world's largest flying flag, not sure how true it is...

Tugu Negara (National Monument)

Tugu Negara is quite far away from other tourist attractions, and It's where we remember those who fought for freedom and independence.

The first monument, it was to remember those that fought in the Great War, World War 2 and during the Malaya Emergency....

Crafted around the monument are those lost their lives in the Great War

The Second monument, written on it is...

"Dedicated to the heroic fighters in the case of peace and freedom,

May the blessing of Allah be upon them"

This bronze monument sort of reminds me of an ionic photo during the world war 2..

Raising the Flag on Iwo Jima

I know it doesn't look the same...but...Malaysia's one look a bit weird...

What tourists come to Malaysia to do.....

KL Bird Park

Located near Tasik Perdana, its one of the location I think worth the most of my time when I visited. According to the guide, its the World's Largest Free-flight Walk-in Aviary, once you enter, you entered a gigantic cage, where the birds are just a few inch away from you...

I spent 3 hours there, walking around and taking photos...

If you're a photography maniac like me...you'll love it..

Looking at this photo is kind of sad... The bird will never know what is behind that net...

KL Bird Park's Bird show, its just a bird show but some are quite good, they even have a parrot that can do calculations~

A bird waiting for it's next lunch...

There still a lot place you can go around Kuala Lumpur that aren't listed here...I only had 1 day to go around, and I didn't see everything...

Rebranding

2011-08-15T23:58:00.000+08:00

For years.... A lot of brands have been re-brand over the years...
Creating new logos..
Creating new slogans...
Creating a whole new corporate identity

So, Rebranding a blog is important to survive in this competitive world

YES....I just said a bunch of sentences that means nothing...
SO... as you know(yes, I know you all have eye)I changed the blog title...
now its called "From MY-side"

We live in a 3 dimensional world...not 2 nor 1...but maybe 4(we just can't see it).
But the point, I want to make is... Everything looks different in different ways.
And I want to express my view from MY-side about something

I think a blog is more than just writing non-sense or daily activities.
I want it to do more...
I want it to be a platform for all my criticism....
YES, I want to say if someone/something/somebody/some-something is ugly/cool/cold/pretty/useless/any adjective you can imagine/etc....

But, talking so much and doing nothing is useless..

SO
I'm setting myself a challenge...
I'm going to - wait for it - review EVERYSINGLE EPISODE of How I Met Your Mother Season 7 that going to start airing on September 19th 2011
that will be at least 20+ blog post in the future 10 months
(if i can do it...)

CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!!!!!!

p/s I'm also trying to decrease the grammatical error to the minimum. After having 1 whole semester of English, I want to maintain what I learn, which is "Pay attention of what you wrote"

Nothing to complain....

2011-05-19T18:25:00.000+08:00

School start tomorrow (technically it's on 23 May).... But the day after tomorrow, will change forever....The start of a new chapter of my life...bla~bla~bla~

All those are non-sense, nobody will change in a single night.
But what is for sure is...starting from tomorrow, I can say Bye-bye to my boring/useless/unproductive mushroom life.

After tomorrow(if everything goes well...) I will have a school!!!

For the last 3 months, whenever meet some one, the topic won't run away from the following questions..

1) Where are you studying now?

2) When you start studying?

3) What you studying?

I'm fed-up with those question, so....after tomorrow...well.. less people will ask those question le...

So conclusion for what happen tomorrow....::

"Less people will ask those question le...wakakakaka"

The Last 18 Years - The Beginning

2011-05-05T20:53:00.000+08:00

I know blogs will be boring without pictures...
But I don't really know how picture can fit into this story...
A story about a guy that thought he can do anything, but the truth is otherwise.
My English is just average, but my Chinese writing skills(just writing skills, I still prefer Chinese over other language) is even worst..so i am sticking with English.

I don't know how long or how many post this whole "story" will take...But i hope i can finish before the school year start(my school year..XD)

So, where to start?
Chapter - 1 The beginning...

I don't have any memory of my life in the first 5 years of my life.
But all of these are just story and tales, my parents and sibling tell me...

I was born on 26 January 1993, i don't know when...but that year, that day was the 4th day after Chinese New Year. And that pretty much sums up my life that year....

Then, my family moved to the United Kingdom to follow my dad, who is studying his PhD over there at the University of Leicester. So for the next 3 years, I stay there and endure the cold winters. The truth is i don't remember anything from those years, For me, those 3 years are just story my family tell me about...

Then Sometime during 1997, My family and I went back to Malaysia. The only thing i remember was a weird road sign that i saw on the road. Its a yellow triangle and got like red dotes on it.

We stayed in our old home, a single flooded house near to the mosque near UPM. It wasn't really big, i remember it had like 3 rooms i think.

I started my kindergarten in 1998 at...errr...Ai Xin Kindergarten (爱心幼儿园 ). I dont really remember a lot of my early childhood. I remember every morning my dad will drive me to the kindergarten and because my dad works early. I was always the first person to reach there. A 5 year old kid alone...LOL...I dont remember if the doors were already open or not. Beside that, I love to climb the steel bars in the small playground they have. I don't know if the kindergarten is still there or not, maybe they went bankrupt or closed after so many years.

Everyday after school, my grandmother will go and pick me up from the kindergarten and we walk back to her house to have lunch, this is what my sister told me. Personally, I don't remember.

After 13 years. I don't really remember if these story really happen or its just part of my imagination.....
That's the first 6 years of my life, my life before Primary, before Secondary, before Italy....

Facebook

2011-04-28T20:24:00.000+08:00

Everyone has facebook.
I mean every single one....
When ever you meet someone new, and want to keep in touch..
The first question is....
"What's your facebook name?"

Its becoming the de-facto communication tool in young people lives....

So its one great invention(if it is count as one) in the world...
Connecting people from around the globe..
But in reality, do you really chat/social/talk/message/poke/comment with everyone on your friend list?

Here is some things i have no idea how it happens....

Normally these things happen to girls only, i never see it happens to guys yet

Issue No. 1 : Too many friends
A standard facebook account come with a maximum number of friends of 5000.
Last do some easy maths...
Lets say in your
primary school year you meet around 200 people (excluding your teachers)
Secondary school year you meet another 300 people
College another 300 people
University another 300 people
Work...if you dont change jobs.... that's around 1000++
That totally won't be over 5000 at all...

But do remember those are real person you meet in real life,
not counting
The random person you met on the street.
The random guy you meet on the internet.
The random guy that send your letters.XD

You maybe meet a lot of different people at work, but how many can you stay connected?
So, 5000 is already a very generous limit.

But, in facebook, we can see people creating accounts after accounts saying that their account is full.
Its true, surfing around you see people with 2,3 even 4 accounts because their other accounts are full.

So why a person can have so many so called "friends" until their friend list is full?

Reason
1) Malaysian love to add people because of the looks
If your a pretty girl...ADD
If your a beautiful girl...ADD
If your a cute girl...ADD
Some ever worst...girl?..ADD

2) For business purpose
Some people add random people to sell things
From normal T-shirt, Bras, lens, and even iphones. You can find quite a number of people selling things on facebook.

3)Just because your Relationship Status is single..
after your Relationship Status turn "in a relationship", girls normally have less friends request..

4)blindly accepting friend requests
Some people just accept every single friend request.
"I don't you..but its ok...i accept you..."=.=

Issue no.2 Stupid caption
A number of girls love to add picture and add a caption like "like please" "请赞"
OMG~ That's super anoying...if i want to "like" a things its because i really like it..
not because you say so....

Then there is the "I look ugly in this picture"...
Why they say that? Because if they write it, people will say.."you look pretty","bla~bla~bla"
if the picture is really ugly, why you don't take another one or even better don't post it on facebook!!

Issue no.3 Weird comments
Normally these things happen to girls with accounts that have at least 1000 friends..
There is people that comment..."lenglui you very beautiful o~"
LOL..I bet you don't know those people in real life...

Rediscover

2011-04-22T00:44:00.000+08:00

Mushroom life isn't that bad actually...
You start out playing everything you didn't did for the 2 months..
Games after Games....
But after wasting 2 months on continues gaming...
Something will suddenly hit you...

Life is meaningless...

You start to think...
You start to question what you did for the last 2 months(March-April)
You start to question your past..
You start to question who you really are..
You start to question everything around you..

There is a big difference between the life of a Secondary School Student, and the life I have now...

I always though i got quite a number of friends..But the truth is??

How you define a friend? What count as a friend?
You maybe have 4900++ friend on facebook..
You maybe have to open a second account to just accept people..
But are those count as friends?

In school, you know a lot of different people.
From Juniors to Senior.
From Prefects to Normal Students
From the front to the back

But after leaving school? Who those count as...
Someone that just a pass-byer in life?
Someone you can chat for hours with?
or
The most important people in you life?

Some people you though you knew them well,
But the truth is what is his favorite food you also clueless...
You found out, for the past 5 years..
you just talking nonsense with him/her.

Beside all that,
People change..
You change....
Everyone change...
No matter what kind of change it is..
For the good,
For the bad,
Its just a proof that you grown up...

I believe the definition of friends depends on the individual...

But the truth...
I don't know how many true friends i really have?
People i can talk to without thinking much
People that can accept who i am..
People that will argue with you for things that really matter...
People that will always be a part of life...

But maybe i'm scared of the truth that..
I don't really have much friends...

I'm not EMO or something...
Just that's the truth that I have to face...
Sometimes, faith...plays a bigger role then anything else...

p/s I'm not saying anyone, I have no person in mind when i wrote this..So its just what's on my mind now...

Day - 6 School Day

2010-12-21T00:35:00.000+08:00

Current temperature : 3°C
Time In Itali : 17.21
Time In Malaysia : 12am????

Ok, the 6 day in Italy, well..hoping i can update the blog if i got the chance :)
Its the 3rd day In Bergamo, Italy
And I really love it :)

Its snowing and snowing....today is a sunny day and its still cold.

Yesterday night, when to visit my host father^s relatives, they were really really nice.
Eventhought, the cousins dont know much english, they still keep on talking with me and woo..
They were friendly and they even ask me do I like love Manga, One of them even loved Japan
Tried something called Pandoro, its like a italian cake, very special, a cake that you cover it in sugar.
It taste like pandan cake, only its harder.

That was last night,
Today the first day of School

In Italy, there is a lot of different kind of high schools, some study language, some school study science.
My school..
Its a buisness school, ya!!!!
Well, there only around 200 student in the school, and my class is 3L
Everyone 17 there, and well...In a lot of ways more budget then malaysia school
1) they got 4 computer labs
2) The table are clean
3) A magnifico indoor sports centre, a basketball, football,tennis,volleyball all together in ONE.
4)A class around 20 student.

Well, after 3 lesson, I cannot understand anything, the first was ecconomy which I dont understand a word,
then worst, French...OMG....Another language.
But its FUN!!! really...
the classmate was helpful with teaching me how to do it, and even translating for me.
So, school for the first day.

Ciao Italy

2010-12-16T16:27:00.000+08:00

Thanks...that want come to my mind...to all of you with the blessings~ I'll be leaving today 9pm for Rome , Italy.... 65 days isn't too long, I wll be back on 21 Feb 2010.

PLS do not SMS me as i'm going to bring my HP to Italy. If you want to SMS me your welcome :) As it going to cost you a fortune. Haha~ remember my birthday o~ haha

Sorry to some friends that I didn't got a chance to get out to Yam Cha with, Suddenly need to buy more things yesterday night.

For those that have no idea what I'm talking about, I'll be going to Italy for a 2 month Student Exchange starting tonight. Organize by AFS Malaysia (Antara Budaya). I'm going to a place callled Bergamo in Italy, somewhere near Milan. Truth is, I really looking forward to it since the beginning of SPM

I'm hoping I can write about my trip here on Blogger but I'm not sure i got the chance or not.
Its going to be full of adventure and joy and happiness.

Hope those that go study, can adjuct to college, Those that work, can have fun, those that stay at home can have a nice wonderful Holiday....

Hope Everyone have a nice holiday, great chirstmas, Happy New Year, "Rich" Chinese New Year and A sweet Valentimes.

Thanks Malaysia for the hospitality and Ciao to Italy... :)

By, XZ

Recap of the School year....

2010-11-17T20:16:00.000+08:00

Very very very very x 10000000 loong time didn't write any blog post at all...
Busy with study..
Busy with exam..
Busy with last minute KOKO..
Bust with an forcoming exent...

But the truth is...I don't think blogging about nonsense is good,
so as long as nothing to say....nothing to blog about.

Ok, 6 more days till SPM, so what is my feeling? anxious or just simply SCARED...errrr
scared but still lazy, still cannot seem to able focus, and playing...err..
How??? just 6 days away....

So, the end of the secondary school life, ended this Tuesday,
no more standing at the perhimpunan,
no more learning(sleeping) in the classroom,
no more gossip with friends..
no more waking up early to go to school..
no more ponteng classes..
no more ruining around the school compound to find teachers..
no more seeing the teacher you care / hate
no more singing the school anthem..

I think i really will miss a lot about it...
I hated my primary school, but I love my secondary school...
I never regret of coming here, since what happen stays happen..
you just have to live it to the fullest. ^^

There was the ups and downs, and some really stupid love story..
Every choose I made in the past, contributes some part of me today.

Form 1
Well..the blurs for all...
I never heard those haka words untill Form 1, really...I mean those dirty words.
Well...Most of the friends that year, well didn't stay quite connected.
But at least that was a foundation, so still ok la

Form 2
..err.... first must "thanks" zhe wu for teaching me to ponteng, really...^^
Form 2 was the year kept on ponteng,
Knew a lot of new friends that year, some that really really last..
Those crazy games we play at the end of the classroom..
The holy PSP...
The ponteng that got people rotan..(no me la)

Form 3
The insanly crazy chinese new year decerations...No picture was taken, so sad....
A lot of activites that year, first time taking part in RIMUP and then 3 years STRAIGHT...
Sidang...I always wanted to enter it...

Form 4
If there is Up then this year will be DOWN..
I maybe blaming other people for most of the things,
But I know it was my own fault to blame on it...Really...
All those old post I wrote about things that I not happy about is really childish,
simply the fact that I cannot handle it well...
I don't want to accept the fact that i screw up...so i just blame others.
I'm sorry for what i done that year....really....

Quite a lot of drama but only part 1, haha...
It was a fun fun year.....if excluding the parts above...

Form 5
the last year....
Bangau ketua...the first 3 months was simply exhausting...
Learning to drive...
Ice Skating with friends...
Going to see Wonder girls...(tai ken hoe is a nice guy)
Drove people to Sunway..
entering an 18 + movie for the first time
Genting trip, the best 3 days of my life...
and the most importent thing is the next post....

So..I'm no longer a secondary school student already...sad...haizz...
I really going to miss it...T.T

~MTV Asia World Stage 2010~

2010-08-02T18:05:00.000+08:00

it was the most insane day of this year...until now la...
If you been seeing my facebook, you will know i kept updating my statues...
minus out all those waiting and.....
MTV Asia World Stage ROCKS~~~

So, lets flash back to 31 July 2010, 1pm...
after got my lunch, went to sunway alone...by car...
Isn't the first time i drove there, so no problem.....except been horn near the LDP toll...
So, reach sunway pyramid by 2, jammed all the way, parked my car and went touring around sunway waiting waiting for Ben. haizzz....

So, decided to just see how crazy is Malaysian fans, went to the venue entrance, and there was this line of people sitting on the ground, eating food they brought from Jusco or McDonald. the line was a stunning 100m, spamming from the entrance till the main road, all got writing on some part of their body...

So only at 3.40...Ben arrived by bus....and only at 4 we reach the gate, and started to queue and we were way way way way way behind, I believe there was 1000++ people in front of us. So started wait wait wait wait.
There was these performers that was performing heavy metal that was insanely HORRIBLE!!!!!
I don't remember which sucking group was it, and I DONT CARE!!!!!

after like 1 hour, only our turn and they got this strict policy about no food no drinks, they throw out my bottle of 100 plus, and Ben's bread....BREAD? what they are thinking...Its just a bread, its not like we going to throw bread at the performers right?

So, after passing security...they gave us these cool fans and a wet cot...
and the stage was at the Sunway lagoon Surf beach....

we just stand a bit right of the center and just few minutes we were there, it started to rain...
rain rain rain rain rain rain rain....got out the rain cot, and first time standing in the rain...
other people open their umbrella, and other people just shouting them to close it...
haha~

only at 6.30....the performance begin, first up was Buckface...the proud of Malaysian band.
there atmosphere was hotting up, it was still raining but No one cares. Just 4 songs by our Malaysian band, and then we started to wait...wait...wait...wait..

Kept seeing the same commercial on the screen
Commercial about Sunway-->Xpax--->Hong Long-->Sony Erricson-->Some lame series on MTV-->MTV, and it kept repeating...that is super boring~~~

waited like 30 minutes, only then the second group went up...

WONDER GIRLS....

and they are not that pretty compare to the pictures la... but they are hot...XD
Korean groups really know how to shake and dance, they are the hottest in the whole concert.
they even changed their outfit...and ended their performance with a good good...
Nobody...
nobody..nobody but you~~~

then another wait..which is insane...45 minutes waiting and it started to rain again.
the crowd was losing its patience, and constant booing can be heard.
Seeing the same commercial again and again..
ITS BORING~

and my waist started to hurt, maybe i stretched it too much...

Next up..Tokio hotel,
and they are rocking the whole place, just a single song Automatic, send the whole crowd into Climax....

there's no real love in you~~~
there's no real love in you~~~
there's no real love in you~~~
there's no real love in you~~~

Sang another 6 songs, and Malaysian are crazy about them....

And another wait for the last Katy perry, another 45 minute wait, they kept replaying commercials and MTV and even a 7 minute long nobody...

Only at 11.45 Katy Perry came out....and Ben and me, just stick around for 2 songs, and we went back, not a big fan of Katy Perry and she seems older then the pictures...
And the whole Sunway Pyramid was still open, paid our ticket and went back...
detour to the mcdonald beside LDP and haven our dinner..
I only reach home by 1.26am...
1.26!!!!!!!!!!!

So, is the trip worth it?.....well, the tickets was given by Wu, so thanks to him first...
If minus out the freaking long waiting time, its worth it....the waiting time kills people..
and next time, they better be on schedule...want people wait for you for 30 minutes are very over the limit....

But its one hell of a insane experience, its not everyday you got the chance to drive home 1am in the morning right? So...you may fell like wanted to go home in the middle of the way. but thinking back its worth it...and it was one hell of a night.... :)

boring post p/s...dont read it

2010-07-21T22:28:00.000+08:00

it seems my head is going to overheat soon~
a lot of things to think...

but..well...by the end of the month, I think most things will be over already...ok~

Recently keep asking people,
If you given the choice to choose which secondary school to go....will you still chose SK?
I actually don't have an answer, is pro and cons...
haizz....but It already happen right? what bother think about it..

Well....Its simple,
yesterday..talked to a girl...
She said somethings, that is quite a wake up call for me..

Well...its mind storming time...
think....think....think...think...think...........

PLKN.....I'm not going...

2010-07-15T22:58:00.000+08:00

I actually don't know I'm happy or not...
because I'm not picked...
after waiting 3 hours only the system gave me a reply...

PLKN: Maaf! --------------- anda tidak terpilih untuk 

menyertai PLKN Siri 8/2011 Terima Kasih

ok, so If you dont understand what its all about, I'm just not picked...
But Deep down I know i got some part of me wanted to go...

NS is really a special experience, once in a lifetime, its not becoming a soilder, but its all about Malaysian. Personally I think its a great program, no offense, but our nation is deeply divided by religion, race, culture, and we nearly could fight on everything....
But, NS lets you experience being together with other people, maybe you will still stick with chinese, but you still will get to know other people from different background and culture,

I think its a great experience, most important is able to hold a freaking M16, and fire a whole mag, they say 30 bullets....and who can get chances like this...

I actually not sure la, my mother keep saying its a waste of time...
haizz....

For those that are lucky to be picked....
It will be fun, don't keep telling yourself, you will be rape by the teachers there...IT WONT HAPPEN. Just enjoy it, it will be fun...sad I'm not so lucky...

For those that are also lucky not picked....
Already partying?

Boring 13/07

2010-07-13T23:13:00.000+08:00

To : Everyone

Got a friend recently become....PLURAL...
well...thats what he say at HIS facebook la~

haha....happy for him la...
since this is his first time..CHU LIAN a

After 17 years of single life....
Countless reject by other girls, most of them....I know..wakaka..
Finally...He found a girl willing to be his girlfriend..
Congratulation....you just won yourself a girl..XD

Saw him confessing his love for her.....well...at least his super brave willing to do it in broad daylight, even though we know its a sure victory...haha~ watching him a floor above, the girls class is just below...GOOD~

But...I still waiting...haha...
Don't know waiting for what leh~ haizzz....

Sometimes, I really don't know write what here..My life just seems so boring...and i really cannot think of anything to write....stuck at home...nothing to say..

If always say games....no one want to see
If always say movie...not everyone got see right..

Someone help me...

From:
A desperate teen..

Day of the Month : Movie Week begins

2010-07-08T23:32:00.000+08:00

Really...don't know why life is so boring...nothing to do and so so~
and well..there is really nothing to blog about..life is sometimes like this, can only use one word to describe...BORING~

Anyway.....its MOVIE JULY..
today 3 new movie...is OUT, and they look ~~promising~~(not really...I dont like one of it)
So...lets see the nominees

Twilight : Eclipse

Everyone is talking about Twilight, everyone is saying how handsome and cool is the vampire(I don't know who the hell plays that character nor the name of the character) Edwin or Edward?

and there is even some guessing who....the girl, i think she was called Bella if didn't mistaken...
Guessing about who Bella is going to choose...
OMG, those are freaking idiots......the BOOK already clearly state who will be the winner, its that very very white guy, that got a freaking eyes. ( Thats why he's the vampire...)

Anyway...some say its the major showdown between Vampires and Werewolf, but if i didn't forgot the synopsis of the story, which is they have an unmarried child, and the child is a vampire, which is illegal, and the very very old vampire wants to kill them.....(I really didn't remember clearly)

+ 1...who wants to go and see...I prefer others like the ones below...

Despicable Me.

( i keep saying dispictable me...got this word??)

Anyway..I only saw its poster last Saturday at Mines, not in front of the cinema, but because Mines is having an event about it.....Saw like a yellow guy running around....I don't know what the whole movie is about...BUT I JUST WANT TO SEE IT...wakakaka..

Saw the trailer(not the teaser) yesterday, and even now I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL THE STORY IS TALKING ABOUT..
lets see the trailer only writes...
"If you want to take over the world" "you need an ARMY"

the other trailer wrote...
"the Pyramid is stolen..OMG"

BUT FOR UNKNOWN REASON...I still want to see IT..XD

Predator

Least interested, but if you drag me to see twilight, i prefer to see this la~

So, basically the story is about a group of bad-ass humans been drag to an alien planet, and become the animals, and been hunt by the predators, and well whats the predator?
This ugly thing....

But did any one knew that this is a remake of a 20 century film by the same name...
starring this guy....

Astalavista baby...( i know its from terminator 2, dont argue...)
and well..i don't think anyone can make a better film, then this fitness guy that went acting and won the California Governor.

So the story line actually quite suck, just ran around the forest..lame...

Toy Story 3

....(Its quite old, but i haven't seen it YET)

Ok, for years i always say if its done by PIXAR(that lamp post)
its worth the money...I HAVE BEEN RIGHT FOR YEARS~

UP - 2009 - Best Animated Feature
WALL-E - 2008 - Best Animated Feature
Ratatouille - 2007 - Best Animated Feature
Cars - 2006 - the only weak link
The Incredibles - 2004 - Best Animated Feature
Finding Nemo - 2003 - Best Animated Feature
Monster Ince - 2001- Not so good, but good movie...

In the last 9 years, Pixar had WON 5 out 9 Animated Features, which is OSCAR....

So, as long as its Pixar made....I will watch...

So after from writing so....lomg...the BIG BIG BIG BIG QUESTION?
ANYONE WANT TO SEE?

Football Fever

2010-07-03T01:03:00.001+08:00

I LOVE YOU NETHERLANDS~~~

haha~
after tuition today went to see football at Equine Park...quite far away,
So, for the very first time....
GOING OUT ALONE BY CAR AT NIGHT, GOING TO EQUINE PARK...

I never went so far before, even with parents,
and the first time...
and alone
at night...
Its creepy...

But at least i made it safe there, even detour to pick up my friend on the way..
(waited for her for like 30 minutes, just driving around the Seri Kembangan Area...

For the first time driving like this, It really build up my confident, but I still a bit afraid of Manual Cars..

So around 9.50 reach Taman Equine, and the whole area was like a festival,
2 of the most popular restaurant even close the road.
NO PHOTOS...
then..the one we went was..
DA ZHONG...and
they even invited Gorbin singh there to see football..
He even lighted some fireworks...
just for a football match...

Ok, back to the match...

Brazil VS Netherlands...

1-2

well...i supported Netherlands from the start,
and they did great, very well..
Brazil players are just too hot temper, and they too aggressive,
No co-ordinations, and strategy
Netherlands is the biggest surprise for this year FIFA

The whole restaurant had the feel of a mamak stall, everytime a goal,
you will hear cheers and disappointment, BUT got football feel~~~
But sadly. the whole restaurant only got 2 tables that support Netherlands,
our table and a table beside us, and after the second goal,
only our table was shouting like hell...
good thing, nobody go and HIT us after the match.. >.<

Watch the whole match there, only then go back home,
and on the way home, i totally forgot to turn the lights on...XP
only after wenting through a dark area, only i realize.

KDU Maths & Science Quiz

2010-07-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

A disclaimer first...
What I'm about to say its strictly my personal opinion and i dont care how you think about it...
If you cannot handle been criticize, don't look at it...

Ok~back~to the title...

So..In a ~~fine beautiful~~ morning...
I went to KDU for a Maths & Science Quiz,
waited at school at 7am and leave at 7.10,
and the whole way was jamming....
So, sat at the bus chatting..
getting my hand hit by Charlotte ( playing games)
p/s her "slaming" is damn painful for her size.
So...our destination is KDU,
I was seeing the windows, and then, there was this BIG BIG sign writing...KDU..
and well...that was their main campus, and we were keep going straight, overshooting it...
I was too lazy, to do anything or ask anyone..I just sat there...XD...
So, after 20 minutes of jamming, we saw another sign, this time is KBU, and...we going straight again, and can over hearing the driver asking another driver through the phone, WHERE IS KDU...
So, conclusion...
the driver SUCKS...
and we got L.O.S.T...haha...
so went back the road and at 8.50am, we only reach KDU...

KDU is a college if your still wondering,
first impression, the outer looks very very old...
but at least inside is still ok...XD..

We went into the hall, where there was tables arrange like an exam hall, and we just find our sits and sit down....and there was all the serious staff..XD
----Serious Staff--->
----Serious Staff--->
----Serious Staff--->
----Serious Staff--->
----Serious Staff--->

So after the Serious staff, well...and there was...this....small prize quiz,
Went up...taken the mic and just introduce myself and the answer..
and WALAO...the MC was talking to another guy, and...didn't hear my answer..
A bit Long Shui la~ but still ok....

Then its was the award ceremony,
there was 50 prizes and 450 participants...
and well...sadly our school didn't get anything..
But, that doesn't prove anything..

So, here is the VERT NOT SERIOUS PART...
out of the top 10...5 was taken by school "C" and the another 4 students....
and somehow the winners(not all la, just the 5 people) will have some special characteristic

Weird Hairstyle :: the 1st runner up, a girl...had a...imagine this...a girl, wearing specs, short hair that shoots up at the end, and pining the front hair...
BLUR face :: all looked like havent been having fun for the last WHOLE YEAR..OMG...
Unhappy face :: even getting the 5th prize, still showing a very unhappy face, maybe their mind is thinking..why I cannot get all right?

I don't know...I have a friend from the same school, and scored 14As in SPM, but even his face isn't this BLUR, and..maybe my friend is special.....

But the 2nd runner up...looks more cheerful and happy, CAN SEE THE FACT THAT...
THAT GUY GOT A LIFE...XD

Anyway, after the award ceremony, there was a quick school tour, and the only special thing is the food, I never seen other college's cafeteria but..KDU's seems very nice and diverse in chooses....
Maybe thats because i never seen other schools.

Went back around 12.30...
nothing SERIOUS nor VERY NOR SERIOUS happen...
I have a boring life...XP

感觉... Thoughts...

2010-06-29T21:08:00.000+08:00

Some damn useless post ahead, if you hate useless blog post, this is one..

the X button is on the upper right...thanks...:)

感觉...
A feeling that i cannot explain....

Recently been ask by a few people (I think 4 people la)
something like this...
"What, you don't have a girlfriend?","really?"
I'm not saying I'm popular or what..
just the fact...why everyone keep asking this?
is this really that UNBELIEVABLE?

If i haven't mistaken, technically I had been single for the last 2 years..
Mark that word..
2 whole years..
and well..
2 years suck...

In the last 2 years i was totally searching for " the one "
and well....I was desperately want to have a girlfriend...
and NOTHING HAPPEN...

But these 2 years had really though me something,
it had taught me what I really want from a relationship...
I know how to be a better person,
There are more people you will meet in this life, and your still young
SK is a small small place....
and these 2 years aren't wasted at all...

And for some unknown reasons..I got a feel recently, a feel that i cannot explain...
that..."the one" is out there....
I don't know when or how I will meet her...
How she looks like
But...
I think it cannot be rushed, and she will be perfect...
She is out there

Am I insane? I think i am...XD

anyway..good luck to Japan and Portugal...
TRUST ME~
Portugal wil be 2-1 wining Spain..haha

Primary School

2010-06-27T17:17:00.000+08:00

Remember the last post about the AFS interview?

When i was busy searching for my certificates to bring to the interview....

I also come across some very very old pictures ( not very old, la.....1-10 years)

Those picture mean something to me...

Those was the class photo taken during my ~~sweet(~~hell) primary school~

One of this pictures was this....

big enough to see? if want clearer can press in to see....

Ok~ back to the photo...

This photo is taken at standard 2 primary school~

and that year actually QUITE SUCKS~

people say they will only remember happy things, but what i remember are 2 bloody sad stories about that year...really...

One...

lied by half of the class...for half a month....

Hai....that super sad, lied by your friends and just for fun?

the only person to blame is the silly me that got cheated..

So they lie about what? Thats standard 2...

they told story about going to a island after school together, having fun la~ a paradise la..

In the end, a lot of other students, including friends, join in the fun of lieing to me...

Second..

Got scolded by teacher because use a calculator to check the answers?

remember back in the ~~sweet~~ old primary school, that during maths, if you ever wrongly done a question, you will be canned? so i just use a calculator to check the answers, my mom was busy that day and can't help me check it...

So at school, for reasons i cannot remember....I told my friends, and another "girl" heard it...and told the teacher i use calculator to do my maths ( correction: I FUCKING DIDN'T, CHECKING ISN'T DOING)

haizzz...scolded cause of my mistake of tell a friend....

conclusion:

sad standard 2

Then again...

this photo...

This photo is my class photo for 6B, standard 6 class....

well....

There wasn't any striking memory about this year..

It was a peaceful year, or i just cannot remember?

seeing this picture...reminded me about the different path taken,

some went to CHS, some to SK, and got that RIP already..

haizz....

but....there are stories that lay beneath it...

that i just cannot remember for now....

But as a CONCLUSION

I still think primary school SUCKS, compare to Secondary,

Everyone done somethings in primary school that you don't felt proud of..

and well...

In primary school its always this cycle,

COME TO SCHOOL--->STUDY---->GO BACK HOME....

its stress free..no stress..

NO relationship problems,

DON'T need to worry about KOKO problems,

NO discipline problem...

NO Drama( i mean...like conflicts)

but thats what makes primary school boring and SUCKS....

AFS Interview

2010-06-24T19:38:00.001+08:00

Attended the AFS state level interview yesterday...

So you would be asking...

What is AFS? and why the hell i went for a interview on a school day??

AFS stands for American Field Service, started during World War 1

Now it organized culture exchange programs around the globe,

and guess what?? Malaysia also got take part in it..

So today's venue is at a JPS activity center at Seksyen 6, Shah Alam.

and well....i left home around 7am and only reach there around 8.20pm...

It was jamming the whole way...I still don't understand why my father...choose to go from Puchong..bypass Subang..

There were only around 40 students from various schools from the Petaling Perdana District..

and most of them came from Shah Alam and USJ schools.

The whole interview session wasn't what i was expecting, we were greeted and brief by AFS volunteers who went on the program before, we played games, shared experience, and hear their own stories.

They even divided us into 4 groups, and make us prepare a sketch in just 45 minutes

And well the first time in a group that was very productive,

everyone was throwing in ideas, thoughts, giving comments

and we keep improving the sketch a long the way,

the sketch was about 3 different people, eating Malaysian food, visiting Malaysian City's and House Opening..

Even though we didn't have enough time to prepare the last part, but we were able to pull it off..

haha~ the whole group was with peoples that know what they are doing...

What they should do...

Played some weird but very fun game, and meet a lot of people...haha...maybe this is better then going to far far away countries...

Back to the interview...

The interview is conducted in another room, and they were 4 interviews doing simultaneously. And i was sent to the 3rd Table, and well....it was a Indian lady, the first thing she told me was...

"Your Form 5 right?"

"Yes"

"I'm sorry to inform you that the JENSYS program that you apply for will crash with your SPM, therefor you cannot attend that program.."

that was the first conversation......(I'm not sure, that's what i remembered)

Then she ask me to talk about myself and my family...

~~that's easy~~...(I think i suck at talking ABOUT myself....)

then....she asked me that is my parents ok with paying 11k

YES, you didn't read wrong 11K,

that will be my second option, living there for 2 months either Australia, Italy, China or Turkey..

she keep asking me, will my parents support or not...

i just keep saying "yes, yes, yes" even though i haven't clearly discussed with my family...

haizz..she keep saying about the consequences of back off the last minute,

then...

She started ask me to present our culture, what culture...

Sabah and Sarawak...

I was totally unprepared for something like that...

and i start talking nonsense...and well....talk about what i remember from Primary School Geography..

HOW THE HELL SOMEONE WILL REMEMBER THESE!!!

others are more lucky, their questions are more general..

like...Chinese Indian culture,

or what is the capital of Malaysia...

WHY I DON'T HAVE THOSE QUESTION!!!!

Then there is a reality check, which she ask about the situations that we may face over there...

then before she wanted to end the interview...she asked me to confirm with my parent using handphone that will they willing to pay for 11k if chosen...

well....i called my father and my father asked this:

"is it worth it", i said " will one", "then confirm la"

OMG~ it sure will be a experience of a lifetime...

Result...

Need wait till August...and well

I don't know my chances, but even this interview widen my view, and i learn a lot from it..

Even though, Its still in Malaysia.

The whole thing, ended at 12...and that's where I GOT A PROBLEM...

My father was busy so the plan was....

AFS-->Texi--->KTM-->KL

but there isn't any texi nor buses nearby..

was just walking

and thanked Joanne's Mom for being kind hearted and bring me along to Subang Jaya..

Thanks..XD

Thoughts......

Well, i don't know my chances...

but hay...at least i tried isn't it...

those that i meet today, was only a small portion of people that was apply for the programs, and even with this small number, they were really the elites in the elites. All posses leadership and very outgoing. their academic won't be terrible to anywhere but.. even from talking you will started to think,

Why our school don't have these kind of culture??

They are not like those people you will meet in our school, but they are more outgoing and race for them isn't a problem. They have more manners and they know how to present themself, take on the responsibility, love to chit chat and will stay in the group

you won't see this in SK. Chinese with Chinese, won't mix with other ethics.

Maybe the ones i mat today are really the elites, but i also got a lot of things to learn from them....

And it really proven the point ,

that out there..

there are better one....

~Genting Highlands~

2010-06-18T21:18:00.001+08:00

Went to Genting for 3 days

it was fun, and i still think 3 days is too short.....its like a split second for me...
only slept around 7 hours for me the whole 3 days,
played every single game possible there, Every single one from boring games like a ride, that let you see a fake alien that just glow red eyes to Fun rides that keep making you want to play again...

~1st Day~
went to the snow world, and well..its better then the one Mines had a few years ago la~
then, a bowling match, and tried the scary Haunted House which i paid 22 ringgit for it....
and the only thing scary was YiYong's screaming voice...XD

~2nd Day~
There was only Fog at the morning, and haiz....they stop most of the game...T.T

I was like in the movies, just seeing fog everywhere...
but at least I played what i wanted to play the most...
the flying coaster, the spaceshoot, and the crossscrew..
and the most scary out of them all is the hauted movie by the 4D theater~
stay up till 4 am and drank the damn useless doubleshot expresso~

~3rd Day~
Watched the "Karate Kid" before coming down from Genting, Soh them say very nice, I say ok only,maybe its because I was super tired?

and during that 3 days, I found out 5 things,

Dont go Genting IF you are single. why? because you will keep seeing couples EVERYWHERE, I mean literally every single corner!
Dont play the Spinning Tea Cup if you got some really strong friends. Well.....its proven that people just love to spin it, One game can make your friend spinning their heads like hell..and leave you to play other games alone....T.T
Starbuck Coffee DONT WORKS. Proof? well....I drank a double shoot Expresso at 4 am, and it didn't help me stay awake, but just gave me a serious stomache in a following hour...T.T
Space Shoot is damn FUN. Dont know what is SpaceShoot?its that tall tall tower that lets you sit on a chair, and push you up 100 metres into the air...and then why its FUN? try playing it 8 at night, and sitting at the side just left to the view of Genting, and you will see a view of your life.....the whole KL Area, you can see it all.....the lights, KL tower, twin tower....everything.....GOD its beautiful.
Those small Games at Genting, Is HARD TO WIN!!!!! there is tons of game there, from hocking docks, to shooting crossbows, and well...ITS NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE to win some....

Genting

2010-06-15T13:00:00.000+08:00

Tired.....

As you all are seeing this post, I'm already AT GENTING...
if nothing unexpected suddenly happen la...XD

Organizing something yourself really tired a~
the responsibility, the fear of being cheated by the agent and so so...
But I somehow already done it to this step...

that I'M AT GENTING ALREADY!!! haha~

started planing from lanjut till genting, only want the most of my classmate can go...
but only 27 can go...and well...at least its way over the half mark la~

Hope I really can enjoy the trip, and totally relax before the final battle..

~Happy Holiday Everyone~

Version 2.0

2010-06-14T03:20:00.000+08:00

~My Story Version 2.0~
Worked 3 hours on this...

I was only planning to change a bit...and steal someone elses design,
but in the end....

A new Header
A new background
A new layout
Wider Box
Missing Border
Font and Size Adjustments
Facebook and tweeter share
Twitter Box...

The html code change till far far complex then the original one....haiz...

Hope you all will like it...
all are ORIGINAL...XD
even the header picture is taken by me...:)

A 99 days story.....

2010-06-02T19:18:00.000+08:00

I totally not remember when all these started....
A single look at her...
and i was totally hooked...
she was the first girl in years, i actually want to know her...
not those kind of girls, you see on the streets, but
you got a feeling...she is special...
I forgot when i first looked at her but...
it was nearly after months,
I finally got her handphone number..
it was 25/2/2010...exactly 99 days from today(2/6/10)
Day - 1 : got her number....and started sms...and started to fall in love again...

Day - 3 : I don't know why i got so brave, and told her...that...i think i liked her...

Day - 6 : First time talked to her in person..

Day - 12 : pay the t-shirt for her, and she told me..that I'm too rich...XD...joking only la

Day - 18 : Went out with her for the first time...Midvalley~

Day - 24 : Sms reach 1300 sms mark~

Day - 34 : told her about how i feel about her...

Day - 37 : waited 3 days for the answer and it was NO....

Day - 38 : Not giving up~

Day - 53 : losing faith in myself can or can i do it...

Day - 64 : deciding should or should not i continue...started to sense that she really don't want to sms with me..

Day - 67 : decided to sms less...scared she will hate me..T.T

Day - 71 : Sms with her during my whole JPJ P license test...even though she keep forgetting to reply me..XP

Day - 88 : wanted to sms with her...and...she don't have credit, but she did you someone else phone to tell me. She had a long long time didn't do it already...

Day - 90 : Planned a very very very BIG present for her

Day - 94 : Made a very very very very very BIG present for her....she was shock, because it really very big..

Day - 98 : Ask her the final time...

Day - 99 : the answer never changed

just a simple timelines la...
details..i don't wish to say...
who..dont ask me...

希望 and 失望

2010-05-25T01:28:00.000+08:00

希望太大，失望也一样大

最近，不知道发什么神经~

可能当你对爱情这东西没感觉，好像有没有都一样。
可能是我对现在的我，现在的感觉失去了感觉吧
对爱这东西，没有任何希望
不是说我对爱情已经绝望，只是有没有都好像一样了

这就是现在的我吧~
我依然相信缘份和奇迹。但我不觉得奇迹会发生在我身上
就同一句
"things that meant not to happen, will never happen."

可能不是现在，不是这几年，
但我相信
总有一天，我会遇到一个互相喜欢的人~
One day, I will meet my Juliet....

现在呢？

我不再抱着太大期望，想是想，但没有...
伤心下~就没事咯~
我只知道

No matter whats the result, at least you had tried...
you will always hope for the best, but
same time, prepare for the worst.
But to me...
both looks like the same...

不是说我对爱情已经绝望，只是有没有都好像一样了
If yes,
I'll be happy...
If no,
I still be happy, and continue with my life....

Alice In the Wonderland...

2010-03-14T23:23:00.000+08:00

Why Mad Hatter like the main charactor?

The whole movie sucks, no offense...

and Johnny Depp like the main actor...even though he just a supporting role...

Story

It take place 13 years after the first trip of alice to the wonderland..

and the whole story is surrounding how alice save wonderland by defeating the red queen with the help of the mad hatter, tweedledum and twwedledee, the cat, and white queen.

and well....It lack romance(its a U movie, so fine...), sudden twist of plot ( its too straight forward)...

and the whole story feels like, they wrote the story just to make a movie, and cheat people money, there isn't much fun in the story and they clearly wrote the story, for kids and teens...

and telling the moral value of being brave, and listen to strangers...

A of the question "why", why should Alice just listen and follow a bunch of mad people..

why she didn't ask why should she do it?

What even worst its about a scroll that tells the future...it wrote the alice will kill the beast

and well..if future is destined..

they cannot change it, and why they keep trying the change the unchangeable..

Visual

well, i didnt see the 3D version, and i sat at the second row from the screen, and my neck stil hurts,

but it didn't effect much of my mood, to say it sucks..

Its whats between fake and real...If compare with Avatar, Avatar is the clear winner

So lets don't compare with a high budget films.

For me, its ok ok only, not the best i seen.

Some scene, like seeing a cartoon with a real person standing in the middle...

and even the red queen look too fake, the head is too big, without shade of colour...

Acting

Johnny Depp never acts a character that isn't half mad...

the whole movie, Johnny Depp really played a too large role for a supporting character, maybe it should be called,

Alice in the Wonderland : Mad Hatter...

For the others, well...Alice is So So only...

Not much memorable performance.

I think the company paid too much for johnny depp, till they cannot find other good actors..

Well, this is what i think about the movie, as a whole..it was quite boring..

I still see it till the end, BUT i wont see it again, for 12 ringgit for this movie..

I think its nearly a waste le..

In simpler terms, I dont like it..

And I give it a C+

8/3/10

2010-03-08T19:28:00.000+08:00

After finish Sukan...
Like life suddenly lose an aim...haha...

Today still going out to distribute the T-Shirts to everyone..
and well...specially skip both English and Maths
Havent prepared for the English Oral..
and Havent finish work for the Maths..
So, SKIP class..

Nothing special happen..
and nothing will happen..
haha...
Life is just so plain....

Kejohanan Olahraga ke - 22

2010-03-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

Sukan..sukan..sukan

Kejohanan Olahraga ke -22

SMK Seri Kembangan...

What we have done for a whole 2 months are all for this day..this day..

and we cannot fail~

SMK Seri Kembangan's sports day today~

and sadly due to our poor weather and track condition..all track events was cancel except 100m

and we only got field events..

So, waked up at 4 am,

reach school around 5 am,

and nobody was there...

prepared our pembarisan, and doing some last minute training,

and then the rain start falling down..

everyone just gather at the hall, waiting for the rain to stop..

and it never stop till 8.30 am

and...

the whole sukan was delayed for 1 hour,

then only the whole event start...

The opening ceremony

It was still raining, all teams were marching in the rain, is something, we don't do everyday..

holding the flag, and standing in front, well..never done it before...

always wanted to hold a flag...XP

we just march, march...i was standing in front, and i have no idea, how was the whole platoon behind me.

then, its was the persembahan,

Was not carefully planned,

never really have faith in the performance, don't know what the teachers are looking for...

Quite nice dance actually..

But..

We still didn't win...

After that, the pertandingan,

and a lot of people didn't come, don't know they played me or what,

A lot of effort was put into high jump,

And it really paid of,

we...WON 1st and 2nd

wakakakakaka...

both wilson and Mikhing trained for days for it, and they did it.

well done...

And then the closing ceremony,

we never got a single olahragawan or olahragawati award,

and then it was the the Johan Sorakan

Kenyalang,

Johan Persembahan gerakan Berirama

Kenyalang,

then Johan Perbarisan

Rumah Bangau

Never thought we actually won an award, and one of the big one...

even though We didn't win,

but at least we tried our best...

Bangau 2010

I Made up my mind....

2010-03-03T20:49:00.001+08:00

Life has to go on~

Heard a story today,

From a Friend...

Maybe thats true after all....

Sometimes The choose you make will make you regret someday,

But thinking back...if i did the other choice, will it be better??

we never know, and we never will know..

But, if i didn't make that choice, I won't learn some of the most important lessons in my life..

First....

Its a story that ended 3 year ago...

I shouldn't blame her, we all should share that responsibility,

I was a bad guy, I didn't do anything that a boyfriend should do..

People always say..

after you lost something, only then you know how important it is to you..

Because i made that choice,

I knew the important of LOVE..

What really a boy should do for a girl...

What i didn't treasure, and what i can missed...

But, I thank her, for showing me all these..

You will always be part of my memories..

Second...

A another story that ended recently,

When people asked, I always said...

"I done everything humanly possible, If i can't touch her heart I really don't know what can I do anymore..."

But is this the truth?

Someone told me..I'm being rude to her..

RUDE~

And i actually think its truth,

maybe i'm very stress..

and heart broken by the fact that I really desperate already..

and i just jealous about her,

Maybe I just can't control myself in front of her...

I know this...

But thanks to you..

If isn't for you I will never know this...

Even though, you hate me...

I was happy once upon a time...

We did some great things...

You made me happy

I will never forget

those memories, i will cherish forever,

As who i now..really come from what i been through...

I like to say I missed the chance,

and the door will never open again,

but, it least i try...I wasn't close at all...

If i got a time machine, and go back in time,

I will never change the decision,

until now,

I still believe,

I believe that was the right one..

the rasional one..

the better choice...

Even i chosen another choice...

The answer also will be different..

The time i spend on you, 1 year..

It wasn't never wasted, Even though,

Things didn't make out as i hoped...

What I hope for never become reality..

What I want...never...materialize..

I believed i though me a lot things, what i now..compare to 2 years ago...really changed,

chat with chui sharn today, and i notice, what an IDIOT i was 2 years ago..

I changed for the better, somethings still need to improve, and you help me realize it...

I am still a hot temper person, and thank you for telling me

I am still a impatient person, and thank you for showing me

I still don't know how to talk, and thank you for enlighten me

I still don't know how to care, and thanks you for signaling me

I can only let go...

Things have to end someday..

Nothing is ENDLESS

and well, life has to go on...

Shi Chen ask me...can you do it???

And my answer will be..I already done it... :)

Bad Monday~

2010-03-02T20:37:00.000+08:00

2 BAD things happen YESTERDAY (wanted to update yesterday but too busy...)

First....

I was rushing to the bus station...
so i decided to ride Wen Horng's motobike..
and well...I'm sure i can go win a jackpot already..
just a corner from school...
we meet 3 polices on moto...
I don't have a helmat..
walau eh...
Just keep convincing them...
that i forgot to bring a helmat...haha...
I already wanted to give them Wang Kopi already..
But good thing...they just let us away..
and well..it save me 50 ringgit...YA~
haha

Second thing...

Went Kasturi for Tuition today..
and after it...
one of the biggest rain ever...
Even inside the tuition center can hear the roaring of thunder..
well...walking out, can see rain pouring down...
and sadly i didn't bring an umbrella..
i always bring an umbrella, and i never rains..
when i didn't bring, only then the rain starts pouring down..
And well..ever play mad dash before...
well, thats what i did today...Just kept running, from the tuition center ran at least 2KM to the KTM station..
jumping over pools of water...dodging people...
regradless of the safety..
what I only thought of is to reach the KTM faster..
before the bangi train leaves the station...
and...when i reach the KTM..i was soaking in water...
and water kept dropping down from the hair..
First time felt cold because the whole body is WET~

28/02/10

2010-02-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

Life too bored recently
nothing to blog about...
and so will be the following week...
can't say anything la...
just too busy with sukan...XD..haha

The following week also need to stay at school....nearly EVERYDAY~
help me~ haha...
wait after sukan, i will update the blog...
wait for me...

Pertandingan Bahas (1st round)

2010-02-24T23:11:00.002+08:00

Debate~

First time take part in a Debate Competition

Worst, its a Malay Competition

Today only we start preparing, 1 and a half hour before the competition...

Thinking what should we talk, How we going to talk.. and the points we going to talk about..

What we supposed to talk...

And the 3 of us, 2 of us have totally no experience in Debate...

So, we just went and hope for the best, even knowing we can't win the 5 Daisi 1 team, because they wakil sekolah

and well...we did our best..

best of all, the first match, we aren't against 5 Daisi 1...YAAA!!!

and our opponent is 4 Daisi 5

We originally though is against 5 Daisi 5, and well...in the end is 4 Daisi 5...

and like bullying those that are smaller then us...XD

So, its a parliamentary debate, and our title was

Studying alone is better then In groups...

and sadly this title is HARD, very hard...

because...we know studying in groups is really better

thank god the opponent isn't that good

I'm not saying we damn fantastic, but simply we done our home work

So, the whole debate start from our side

Supporting Party (PM)

Qi Yang done a great job at starting and giving out points

Opposing Party (Ketua)

Not very good...keep er...er...er..

and wasted as lot of time, don't know saying what...

Supporting Party ( 2nd Minister)

Charlotte was fantastic..and she sound confident enough to handle it...

and she even though was short, but it was enough...

Opposing Party (2nd Minister)

She was better then the Ketua, but a bit lack of facts, and killing its own point

and like me like to say english..haha

Supporting Party (3rd Minister)

My turn....and damn, I'm scared and start saying weird things..

but at least i attacked every single point the opposing party...

At least..Job well done..

haha...Actually i was terrible..

BLEK~
Opposing Party (3rd Minister)

He was good, really, he sound confident, but because he didn't know the rules, done some critical mistake, and she stand up, like want to cari gaduh~

At least, all our hard work (3 hours work) wasn't wasted, and at least we manage to squeeze us into the semi final...

Originally they want to put the final on the same day..but who can handle it...

We all tired, and hungry..how can we bahas...

zzzzz

So, Next Monday its 4 Daisi 1's turn..haha

Saringan

2010-02-23T22:20:00.000+08:00

Aeroplane guy~

Damn Angry today...let 10 people give aeroplane..
10 PEOPLE!!! ranging from form 1 till form 5...

And some just don't show up...

I called one of them...
Him : Hello, who are you

Me : I'm bangau ketua are you..XXX

Him : what you say again???

Me : I'm bangau ketua, are you XXX.

Him : OO~ No, I'm XXX's brother

Me : Then Where is he?

Him : went to his fren's house

Me : I don't think so lo~ you're XXX

HIm : No la~ I'm his brother

Me : Don't lie la~ you sound the same like XXX

Him : Ok...la....

Me: So why you don't want to come to school?

Him : I go home already..

Me : We told you, today to come one...

Him : I go home already, you want me to come again?

Me: You can walk back de ma

Him : I got no transport a

Me : We go fetch you lo

Him : I need to ask my brother...

Me : Then why you say you can one?

Him : I just say o~o~o~ only

Me: You already promise to come...now you say like this??

Him : You all threated me...I sure say o one...

Me : Wei..this is promise problem..you a guy and you promise things..

Him : I dont be a guy lo

Me : then who are you???

Him : A human....

Me : So you not going to come lo

Him : I belanja you 3 makan la

Me : you belanja all people makan la

Him : Cannot like that one...

I shut his phone...with anger...
Those people are...better go to HELL!!!

GO TO HELLLLLL

But at least tarik tali got people..but still lose and got a cramp in my leg...still hurts...

22/02/2010

2010-02-22T21:50:00.001+08:00

A day without school in school

First thing first....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHUN CHUN

(YEE WOON CHUN)~

Sorry for forgetting your birthday last night...

Sorry~

So back to my sad life..XD

Thanks to our dear beloved Headmistress..

We sport day got our running back..

In the last minute..

So, today never enter the class for even a single period..

Running around finding people to RUN~

yes,

each class got 2 events and a total of 4 people

we got 6 classes, making us have a total of 24 people to find in a DAY~

When i mean a DAY~ its really just a day..

Pn.Tan Inform us at 8.30am and want us to hand in the list by 12.30pm...

All Ketua Rumah was running around finding people...

and bagging people to run...

At least was in time for it...

Haha....tomorrow need to tarik tali le..

GOD SAVE ME~~~~

2010-02-21T23:32:00.000+08:00

Life somehow heal itself

Just suddenly,
I cannot feel anything more...
No more pain or sadness

Maybe after you finish experienced HELL
you know that..
HELL isn't that bad...
and well...
no more sadness, or pain
just a normal heart...

This is how life works..
It heals you... no matter...what HELL you been through..
IT WILL BE OVER ONE DAY~

This can mean 3 things

I got myself a serious, very serious....DEPRESSION until i going mad...
OR life started to be meaningless...and you going to see me kill myself in the next 2 days
I'm over it...in someway....

Which one is it??
Who knows???? haha...

No longer i see this as a MUST...
but more of a hobby now..
something..that you can stop when you like...XD

Games For Windows Live VS Steam

2010-02-20T22:12:00.001+08:00

Why ORIs are also so complicated???

Don't know what the hell I'm talking about??

Well....

bought my birthday present yesterday...yap my sweet birthday present..

happy birthday to me~

happy birthday to me~~

happy birthday to me~

(its a game cd, if you don't know what you looking at)

and for the Intro

Steam

its a PC game distribution platform thats created by Valve around 2003 for their games

As years passes by, they started to offer other games to be bought there...

ranging from 2k games to EA....

what they promise are simple...

A SINGLE ACCOUNT, UNLIMITED COMPUTERS~

meaning you can play at any computer, with your save files bring along..

that is their Steam Cloud..

you can play games on computer A, then move to computer B and download your save files, and continue play there.

They also offered community, friends...and groups, even voice chatting in the background...

they have been called the best distribution platform for PC GAMING for years...

The only issue i have with Steam, that you don't have a solid copy..i want to collect those boxes..

Games For Windows Live

~~Microsoft's answer to Steam~~ actually not, its just a moved platform from their XBOX 360 to PC, they so lazy..

Why i say like that? because when you login, it asks for "XBOX LOGIN"

DAMN THAT MICROSOFT, dont believe it?? see this...

its a PC game distribution platform for...9 games?

and what they sell..cannot be paid by credit card..but by points..

damn you again...

it also have friends, and free downloads, and also let you move your save files around

(they copied from Steam, everyone knows it)

AND I HATED THE DAMN GAMES FOR WINDOWS LIVE!!!

and till now... i can't seem to get that game running...

Problem No.1

first it tells me...i need login..FINE..i login

and it keep telling me i'm not old enough, and need parents....=.=

WALAO~

i made another account just to cheat that parent thing...

Problem No.2

Then it say i need to update the game..I don't want and kicked me out of the game..

I OWN THE GOD DAMN GAME...and you don't let me choose i want to update or not..

Problem No.3

I start played the game on Offline profiles last night, since i don't want to update...

and i enjoyed the game...

And today, i want to change the profile from offline to online by just adding my email..

and then IT ASK ME I WANT TO UPDATE OR NOT...

I click "NO" and it say that update fail...and i lose all my save files...

WALAO...

I played so long last night....

Problem No.4

I decided to let it update....

and waited for hours..

and getting a error message that say it updated fail...

=.=

Problem No.5

I still don't know when it will finish..

it just show a BLUE BAR....

and its downloading, installing...or what..i have no idea..

Proof...

I have a great experience with Steam last time, when i bought COD:MW2

and GFWL(short form for Games For Windows Live) totally sucks...

Steam is less complicated, then this...

and it tells you, whats the speed of the download...

and everything else..

And now...still waiting for that damn UPDATE...

I HATE YOU GAMES FOR WINDOWS LIVE~~~

I specially went down to Midvalley to pick my copy..

and its damn frustrated to know that ORIs are that complicated...

BUT....I still want to support it...

2K made a great game...and again... they deserve it...
XD

A Another Boring Post...

2010-02-19T23:40:00.001+08:00

Sad again

Someone ask me today...
he said..
"Should i give up?"

I reply him
"Dunno ask me, i also dunno...thinking of her till got mental illness le...XD"
Quite meaningless..
But Is it worth it?

My sister has keep scolding me, and say i "凡奸"(spelling maybe wrong)

But the truth is...
When you want to give up..
Then you know how deep is that hole that you will need to fill...
and its seems get larger and larger..
only then...
you know..
you really loved her a lot...
thinking of her...
and fantasize what if your together...
and you suddenly don't want to give up..

Most girl don't seem to get it...
they laugh at those guys that really "die" for the girl he loved...
They laugh...They make jokes about it...
and they say the guy is an idiot..
well...

To those girls
" Even if you don't love him...Don't make a fool of him...
You only make yourself a BITCH"

To that guy
"Is it worth it?"

Don't know...

p/s Anyone knows any psychiatrist?? I think i got 忧郁症 le...
really should start on some meds...

R.I.P

2010-02-15T23:17:00.000+08:00

R.I.P

Have you ever thought of someone died just in front of your eyes??

Have you ever see someone just suddenly died in front of your eyes??

This Chinese New Year just end....

yes...just ended....

Today went to see my grandfather at the Hospital again...

quite serious...heartbeat around 130 and seriously dehydrated...

His breathing was rapid, and you can see his stomach keep moving..up and down..

The Hospital is Hospital Banting

A government hospital which is near to the hometown...

The only reason my grandfather is there..is because its near home...

So...that was 12pm....

Went back around 1pm and have McDonald....

Chatted at relatives Home..

then went to the hospital again..

this was around 4.30pm...

4.20pm

the pulse rate already...dropped till 118..which is a good sign..

as normal pulse rate is around 60-80....

although his breathing is still rapid...

4.50pm

the pulse further drop till 108, and his breathing although still rapid have seen signs of recovery...

and the nurse came to give some medicine, and he injected it directly into a tube which connect

to the stomach...

and everthing seems fine...

5.10pm

pulse rate dropped till 102, and we were quite happy as the breathing has slowed down..

and we just sat there...smsing..and reading books...

5.20pm

I was just walking around...and suddenly..

My Grandfather....maked a loud sound, like gapping of oxygen, and wannted to vomit...

then nothing...

TOTALLY NOTHING...his stomach has stopped moving...

He wasn't want to vomit...but...his heart rate stopped..

the ECG has slowly becoming a straight line...

his mouth was still moving, like trying to breath..

his leg move a bit..but maybe was a reflex..

we called the nurse, and the nurse just slowly walked here..

5.21pm

the nurse reach the bed, and ask what happen..

surely there is something wrong, and we told them he stopped breathing..

she slowly called another nurse, and they just walked slowly to get the blood pressure machine

5.23pm

the nurse cannot get the pulse, so she went to called the doctor..

and the doctor isn't in the wad..and i don't know hell where she is....

the nurse called the doctor by phone..

other nurse just stand there...waiting

5.24pm

the nurse on the phone..and laughing..

i don't know WHAT SO DAMN FUNNY ABOUT SOMEONE DIEING

other nurse just stand around doing like checking only

NO CPR

5.25pm

the nurse finish calling the doctor..

and start gearing up..and just putting machinese here and there...

STILL NO CPR

My father already started to shout at them, why no CPR..

and they say they are waiting for the doctor..

5.27pm

only now, the doctor reach there..

and only them..he started to check only

yes check...

NO CPR

5.29pm

only now...she began CPR..

but its too late

5.35 pm

announce dead.....

I know how to do CPR..

I know a bit about medic..

BUT...

when in a real life situation our mind just become blank..

We constantly say we know what to do...

but,

that 10 minutes...is like a second to me..

We never know what to do..

Only when we finally remembered..

its already... too late..

We say we will do CPR in those situation..

but...I just forgot...totally...

He is my grandfather...

I just stand there...watching..him

thats why government hospital SUCKS~

the following 3 days, won't be near a single computer..

May My Grandfather Rest in Peace

Chinese New Year~~~

2010-02-15T10:47:00.000+08:00

Gong Xi Gong Xi Gong Xi ne

Actually Chinese New Year should be fun because of
ANGPOU~ yes
EVERYONE LOVEESS MONEY
who dare say he/she don't love money..please remember to give that money to me...XD

And some of the reason..its a bit down for me...A BIT ONLY

1) ANGPAO
haha..less angpao for me, this year...
less...
well..its a tradition...
My grandmother pass away last year, thats mean this year we have to 守孝,
ya...its a tradition that i don't think its too bad...
Even though that means less angpao for me..
But, if we forgotten our roots, won't it be too pathetic?
So...less angpao for me this year...
a bit sad, as this is one of those source of income...

2)GAMBLE

yes..people love to gamble, the law stated that we can't
but, we still hide in our wooden houses..
get a table, and a lot lot of CASH...
to gamble...haha
yes...no matter what age group your from..
as long as you understand the rules and how to read a card..
YOU CAN GAMBLE ( only if your parents sponsor you cash first)
well...its like a tradition, we gamble yearly..
and this year, i loss a whooping 100++ in just one hour...=.=
Thats on New Year Eve...
So...sad...

3) Grandfather in Hospital

Got Serious Issues..Internal Bleeding...
Heart muscle infections..
Lungs got water...
and a lot more complications..
He's staying in the hospital.now..
and he's current situation isn't good..
Hope he really will get well....

BUT WHO CARE ALL OF THESE...
CHINESE NEW YEAR IS TO HAVE FUN!!! FUN!!!
SO I CONTINUE TO HAVE FUN LA~
ya..runing to Jusco Bukit Tinggit to Sing K on the first day of CNY..

CNY is to let family be together..regarding where you are now...

TO all....

BELATED HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR AGAIN

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

2010-02-13T22:25:00.012+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

haha....

Everyday we are always busy...
studying, working, sleeping,socialling with strangers..
BUT do you remember the last time you spend some time with your family..
you relatives????
DON'T REALLY right??
the last time is either a family function or just the last chinese new year...
CHINESE NEW YEAR is day where family and relatives gather together and have fun..
and really bond to each other

So to all happy CHINESE NEW YEAR, and HAVE A GREAT TIGER YEAR~

To all those that are "coupling"...and those are going to "coupling"

HAPPY VALENTINES~

sad year again..single again on Valentines....

Program Satu Malaysia

2010-02-13T22:25:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year IS HOT!!

Well its RIMUP again...
WAIT.
They change the name,
It’s no longer RIMUP but called Program Satu Malaysia,
So, it was yesterday...

didn't blog about it...because too busy sleeping after....

(taken form Kar Wei's facebook)

Ok, again..this is the third year take part in RIMUP
and...Program Satu Malaysia started from

1) Pancaragam.
Didn’t heard it as i was busy giving out chinese orange

2) Dance

(taken from Yin Ping's Facebook)

My mom say its was boring....

But i like it, I think it was elegant, and they did a great job at choreograph it

3) Taekwondo

Great...haha..no comment

THE
the drama...
this time what i portrait is....
2 character...which mean i have to change cloths in a split of second..

but well actually i was first assign as a senator,
Then they changed me to a student
Then again...
to a 10 year ago flash back character,
Then senator again...

But it worth it...the first time, I actually think that the drama really gave a good massage
It’s funny but meaningful,
a story about some students go to do charity, and gave the massage of not leaving the old folks
THE STORY:::

A headmaster bring a bunch of kids to the old folks home, and help them cleaning,
and then a grandchild finally unite with his beloved grandfather and their flashback,
then they all celebrated the CNY together...after its midnight...\

After it, we sang the song 大日子 and we were SOOOO HIGH!!

haha...yes...
hehe....,
very high...
haha..
very high.
Then, invite the teachers to go up stage, and sang “gong xi gong xi”

(taken again from Yin Ping's Facebook)

And well…the teachers were co-operative
Not much people came to school, but the audience was very responsive...
we enjoy acting and playing at the same time..
Even though, that the Program just lasted 2 periods...it shown how "hot" we are!!!

09/02/10

2010-02-09T21:58:00.000+08:00

Super Duper EMO

Still haven't decided will i give her something??
I don't know....

Today went Mines to buy some new cloths for Chinese New Year
Went around..didn't see any interesting, then...
Went into the shop "Effu"(the one on the same floor as the cinema)
As their were new stock...
I went around...
then...
Suddenly...saw her...
she didn't saw me...
I just turn around and went out of the shop..
don't know why I have such respond..
then after a while..went back inside, and saw her with her family..
So..I just..trying to escape from her...
and i think i hope she will see me and just a smile will be enough...
I was scared...
while waiting for my family...
I Suddenly Super EMO...like been shot..
I just walked around...avoiding her, at the same time hope to see her...
I just don't know how to face..her...
OMG!!!!!
In the end...i just went away with my family...

I don't know she saw me or not..
But she seems occupy by all those clothings...
So, I just assume she didn't saw me...

The whole trip went from GOOD to HELL in a matter of minutes...
the next few minutes..I totally cannot concentrate my focus to the fact that..
I want to buy a new shirt...
Keep thinking of her...Hope to see her...
I did bought one..but i'll always remember that painful experience..

Its easy when you say you want to give up someone...
Its hard when you actually going to give up someone...

Teeth pain~

2010-02-08T20:39:00.000+08:00

My Mouth hurts~

Nothing Major happen today...
except the fact that my tooth is shouting in PAIN~~~
YES!! My tooth
Seems like the Wisdom tooth is coming out... Not sure its the wisdom tooth or not,
but since I'm way way past the age of dropping teethes..I assume is the wisdom tooth
Tooth coming out, aren't painful, but tooth coming out on the far end of your mouth..
Rubbing with your gum and skin...HURTS~
EVEN now..
When shutting my month,
I'll feel a sensation of pain with it..haha
really PAIN~

Tried using my hand to touch the teeth see how its going, and i feel that the teeth only come out..
like a horn in the gum...

Still hurts like hell.....
Cannot do anything about it...

My Undang Test

2010-02-07T22:46:00.002+08:00

Good thing, I'm not colour blind

Took my Undang test today..

The aunty took me to the testing center at Tun Hussien Onn, Cheras..

where?
somewhere near Jusco Cheras Selatan..
it was full of people, ya..and i waited for 4 HOURS FOR MY TURN!!!
4 HOURS..
sat there waiting..
first hour
was scared..that it will call my name..and keep reading
and every time she call people to enter the examination room.
my hand will shake...
second hour
already very bored..start smsing people
and just see see the book
third hour
playing Sims on my handphone..sitting on the floor like sakai

and seeing other people in and out~
third and a half hour
went down to the nearby McDonald and have a McValue meal
start taking some silly fotos

the outside view of the test room

one of the test computers

fourth hour
Finally my turn...

The test as most of you will know its a computerize test,
consist of 50 question, 3 section
those DONT SCARE ME

WHAT SCARES ME IS THE COLOUR BLIND TEST!!!
yes..colour blind test..
8 questions only, but if WRONG any of it, you are in big big trouble..
if anyone failed the test, that will be wrong a single question..
they will declare you UNFIT to carry our the test..
and you have to get your eyes check at a specialist,
go to JPJ to redo the test...
and thats a waste of time and money...
Ok, i'm totally normal and not colour blind, but hai~
those picture are hard to see..some are quite confusing..
and you miss seen one of them..your dead!!

I'M NOT COLOR BLIND

good thing i "lulus" it..haha

So about the 50 question undang theory test..
if you did finish the 500 question book, then i shouldn't be a problem to you..
so my result..wakakaka

Section A : 14/15

Section B : 22/25

Section C : 10/10

TOTAL : 46/50

So "PASSED"
yaya...that will mean i finish the first part of getting my license...

School Papan Kenyataan

2010-02-06T21:36:00.001+08:00

Papan~Papan~Papan

recently just want to paralyze myself with other things to don't think about somethings..

but somehow talking about it..it still make me...shake..

So..been doing our class's announcement board a.k.a papan kenyataan..

for a whole week..haha...just to make me don't think about it..

Today went to school and keep doing it...

doing it..

cutting it

POTONG~ POTONG~POTONG~

and still haven't finish..

haha..

and result for now..

Full view

door view...

our cute tiger..

Still got a lot to do...

the tiger like jaw dropped...XD

today only 12 people came to school..

and none of the teacher teach as we all was busy doing the papan kenyataan..

haha..

We used Super glue to glue that tiger to the wall..as...

FIRST TIME : DROP IN 10 MINUTES

SECOND TIME : DROP IN 48 HOURS

So we came out with a three steps way to overcome...

Clean the wall before sticking it (D5 tried it, and it fall of..)
Use Super glue a lot of it (used dunno, how long it will stick...)
Bring a Hammer and BENG BENG BENG!!!(didnt use in the end...)

Got the tiger "stable" now....=.=

So...we keep talking and doing things at the same time.

.till the teacher from other class come and scold us..

I even sat at other class and talk to friends, while thier teacher was teaching..

I think we done a great job at creating a tiger haha..

don't know our chance of wining but I'll be optimistic..

haha

And well...it was a stress-free saturday...

How a sports day can become not one....

2010-02-04T19:29:00.001+08:00

How a sport day will become not a sports day

confusing???

Well its simple

A Sports Day without ANY Running ISN'T CALLED SPORTS DAY...

thats what happen in our school...

ALL track events has been CANCELED

and whats left is.....

Lompat Tinggi
Lontar Peluru
Lepak Cakara
Tarik Tali

4 EVENTS FOR SPORTS DAY!!!!!

is this called sports day??=.=

worst is..we only today receive the news about this..

no runing

nothing...

WHY they cancel the event??

Because of..

OUR FIELD IS DAMN WET, AND ITS UNSAFE FOR STUDENTS TO RUN~

So we, all 5 house's ketua..went to argue with PK Koko..about 1 whole period.. and another 1 with Pn.Tan

and we state some solutions that will solve the problem

1) Borrow Serdang Baru 1's Field

Teacher's answer : discipline problem, scared our students will vandalize..

2) Go to borrow UPM or other places

Teacher's answer : No this-->$$$$

3)Just run and don't care about the track conditions

Teacher's answer : what if something happen?who take responsibility (will we be so unlucky?)

4) Just cancel the damn event.....

Teacher's answer : Cannot Cancel as the event is planned since the beginning of the year

5) Resurface the whole field...

Teacher's answer : No time + No $$

6) Go to another place just to run..

Teacher's answer : No $$

7) Delay the event to another day(not raining season)

Teacher's answer : Our school's schedule is too full.

8) Find sponsor for the event

Teacher's answer : If you can its ok..(do you think you can find?)

So...after 2 periods of negotiation...

NO RESULT..
BUT

most likely we have to admit the fact that..

the chances of having track events back is...small

then, the school decided to add a new event

called..persembahan sorakan..

and the rules are simple...really simple..

No Jumping
No Rolling
No Dancing <--- this the main point...
No Aerobatic movement

So in the end..what we can do in the end is..stand there and do movements..=.=

this was best joke i heard this year...

a persembahan sorakan that DONT LET YOU DANCE..

what the school expecting us to do? stand there and be sakai?

So this year sukan...will sure be..boring

Who want to come and see a sports day with out any track events

like what qing ying said :

" We can no longer shout, FASTER, FASTER..but shouting...THROW FURTHER.."

02/02/10

2010-02-02T21:30:00.000+08:00

is opening a gate wrong?

Is alone better??
Today seems too be more happy..haha..

Today was sukantara, but sadly
there is only ONE sport...
I remember a few year ago(when i was form 1) there where 4 type..
100m
400m
lontar peluru
and
lompat jauh,
now only left LONTAR PELURU...
why because the field was wet..and UNSAFE..walao eh..
but at least we still have lontar peluru..hah
So...the target was...7 METRES
thats far...very..far...but
the first time..i throw..was 6 metres
then metres again...again..and again..
and after 10 throws..
10!!!
finally reach the 7 metre mark..YA!!!
well...feel good about myself...XD

Went out doing bangau work..
and after school
I was waiting for my mother at the gate..
then a car from padang want to go out..and the guard is out of sight..
So...i walk there and try help open the gate..
i was locked..and the guard came and scolded me..
WHAT THE FUCK..i just want to help
and i got fuck because..
I try help???
What world is this.....

31/01/2010

2010-01-31T17:24:00.000+08:00

End of Jan 2010, what i DONE??

So fast, January of 2010 is already coming to an end...
but at least i accomplish some things..haha

Recently very busy with my life...tuition...homework..bangau...
very busy...but at least I'm quite enjoying the proses...
So the blog going to be less updated..

Today didn't went to St.John's AGM,
and instead went to hear a 5 hours speech about undang
really hope can get my lessen by March...

Left home at 8am and reach there around 9pm..
and its so far..NILAI!!!!
regret signing up that company le..but what can i do now...nothing..
and that company like got hidden charge one,
went there alone, because seems like most of my friends..need wait for next year, or march..
haizz..
waited there like sakai from 9 to 10..
the lecture started from 10 till 3pm, a total of 5 hours..
but actually only 4 hours, 1 hour break...
but it also very sian...the
lecturer speak malay mix english, and cannot see clearly what was written on the screen,
because he wrote too small....
and the presentations colour is too dark...

And most of the things, he teach is facts, and he just keep joking here, joking there..
hearing the jokes a few times..is BORING~~~

He even shown us a clip of FINAL DESTINATION 2..
the car crash....and ask us what gone wrong...
its actually very easy..the rope snapped..
and ITS FAITH..
IMPOSSIBLE CAN DODGE ONE...
haizzz

then ate mee goreng for lunch..malay style,
when i want to give the money..i was a bit slow, counting the money..
and that woman scolded because i was SLOW..
walao eh..i buy from you already very good le..
zzzzzzz

Good thing is the meal was quite delicious...
After listening and smsing the same time for another 1 hour...
FINISHED!!

5 stage of grief

2010-01-29T21:44:00.002+08:00

Lets Move on~~~~

Let me share somethings.

they call this the 5 stage of grief

1) DENIAL
2) ANGER
3) BARGAINING
4) DEPRESSION
5) ACCEPTANCE

5 stage for someone to accept their love one's have gone away...(dead lo~)

But you also can use on getting overcome someone...or loss of something

Denial~

you denied the fact that you got dumped or wat

you think that maybe its a trick or anything

you hallucinate things and dream about other things

Hoping that what she said isn't the truth

Hope she/he just will turn around and say she didn't mean it

you keep convincing yourself..its just for now, and tomorrow it will change

most important is you just don't want to face the truth

Anger~

You hate he/her for denied you

Hate he/her for don't care for you

Hate he/her for no longer love her

Hate he/her that she didn't accept you

Hate other people because they destroyed it..

Hate yourself because didn't appreciate it when you have it..

Hate the world because when you stop, the world just keep going

Barganining~

You try to bag the god or anything out there hoping it will mean the relationship

You try to be better and hope can save it

You even start praying for god~

You say to he/her you will change for he/her

You will buy what he/she wants for he/her

You think you can change, but you cannot

Depression~

totally went EMO~

don't want to talk, don't want to see people

don't want to see he/her

don't want to think about it

don't want to do things and everything

Seeing out from the window..asking yourself...

what you want to do...

Thinking its the end of the world

and you prefer jumping of the 4th floor of school

Acceptance~

We accept the fact that we have lose the battle and its time to go on..

there is no longer anything left to salvage...

there is nothing left..

he/she will NEVER(mark my word) NEVER turn back...so should you

Cherish the time you spend together, and forgive and foget he/she

and its time to move on...

Moving on~

A blue rose~for he/she

p/s I jumped, i really jumped..let it go on~~~~move on

2010-01-28T21:40:00.000+08:00

Love is a Lie

"Its amazing how someone can break your heart, but you will still love her with every single broken piece"

Someone told me this yesterday, quite meaningful...
Do it worth keep trying to chase a girl? which you have been denied by her for a lot of time..
Is it worth it?
she told me i better give up and don't waste time on her...
she told me there is no more feeling...
she told me is nearly impossible...
she told me that she aren't going to be engage in a relationship..

Sad isn't it? My pathetic life...
I really don't want to give up....
She something special to me..
and i really don't want to give up

BUT
the reality is..
the chances are near to non..
I really really love her...
thats what i know..
but she don't even like me..haha

So... what i'm going to do??

My Birthday

2010-01-27T22:51:00.000+08:00

My Birthday 26/01/10

I don't know its a good memory or a bad one..

It started out great, but ended with a cry~

So..

From 12 am

Thanks to 翠珊，林晴，婉慈，铭俊，雪莉，Winson，Carmen..

For thier Happy Birthday in the Middle of the night~

Thanks to Wu~, Hong Nee, 大余，yoo yong for thier...

MSN's Happy Birthday...

then in the morning...

Thanks to..long list...

er..er...er..er...Sam, Winson again, Kar Wei, Kai Jun, Chi Yan, Beh~, Wen Xin, Cappuccino~, 雪莉 again, Wing Fai, Kexin, Jia Torng, Raining, Yi Yong, Miin Yi, Charlotte..and much much more

and got the first present..thanks to 雪莉~

then went out doing bangau job~ until rehat..

and during it..thanks to chan yuen man...for actually knowing my birthday..XD..thanks~

and those four girls...thanks...

REHAT!!

went 5D1, because Zhe wu bought a cake ( i told him i don't want a cake, and he still bought it..XD)

a CHEESY CAKE~

and was chased out by the pengawas, then went to celebrate at Physic Lab...

I was scared that like last year...a teacher will storm in and rampas our lovely cake...

the whole gang was there~thanks

All 5 Daisi de

Yoo Yong, Sin Jie, Winson, Soh, Hong Nee, Jun Fei, Ming Jun, Wei Lee, Jia Wei

thanks!!!

Special Thanks to Wu lo~

For that cheese cake...

They were only able to sing and blow the candles, didn't have time to eat..haha

Photo~

Then...2 presents, from winson and another from 17 different people..

From Winson

what's inside?? a watch!!

and another from....

From 17 different people

Soh
Bryan
Shin Ying
Soh Jia Kee
Sue Teng
Wan Ci
Yi Yong
Charlotte
Miin Yi
Wing Fai
Ming Jun
Carmen
Cappuccino
See Ming
Forgot who le..But still thank you~

Afternoon~

then after school. got RIMUP training

then..after training we were singing the drama theme song for the RIMUP

Chee Yan told us that we have to go minus one(just music) in the middle...

then the music slowly stop..and suddenly

"Happy Birthday to You~"

"Happy Birthday to Xiang Zhi"

"Happy Birthday to YOu~~~"

it surprised me..and i was totally touched....

SO A SUPER DUPER THANK YOU~ TO Chee Yan

At the night, my father bought me go MidValley and have ShangHai La Min...haha

Said about it very long time already(just 2 days)

What happen that night..i just don't want to talk about it..

Sorry...

25/01/2010 ~ Micro~

2010-01-25T20:10:00.000+08:00

mooooooddddyy

Today still very moody~
Cannot forget what happen on Saturday..totally unhappy~
it haunts me~

Scare about hari sukan..
scared about cannot finish the job..
cannot do anything..
cannot accomplish anything..

Sometimes you just got too many things to think,
One of them just finish then another thing come...
It seems like it will never end!!!

Got some issues with our team..
and i scare i cannot do it..

But i'll just try my best...

WTF~
IF I'M GOING INSANE IT WILL BE TOMORROW~
wakakakakakakaka

Yesterday

2010-01-24T15:36:00.017+08:00

yesterday...the worst

Yesterday....

sad or not sad i don't know....

So what happen yersterday that drove me to write a post that i think is meaningless

So..yesterday,

left home at 3pm, meet wu and others at the cinema,

we bought a 4.45 ticket to see WooHoo

Went ate pizza at PizzaHut, and i found out that that thai seafood is a lot nicer then other piza,

first time try the thai seafood pizza, and it was great..a bit sour and sweet.

Went to cinema, and bought some drinks and popcon for it.

and the first thing i notice, is the fact that the cola..SUCKS..

the cola is like drinking "AIR BERPERASA COLA, NO SUGAR"

It only have a bit flavor, and a lot of gases..

cannot drink at all...

drank the whole thing, then quickly throw away...

woohoo

I don't understand why they call in chinese is 大日子，and in chinese they call WooHoo...

walao...those two have totally different meaning..

But for a malaysian production..it did a terrific job,

the only problem is the music seems keep repeating the same song again and again..

Didn't expect much from the movie, but it was a great movie

The whole movie you can see ASTRO everywhere....even poor houses got astro..

haizzz..

after the movie, some of the friends went home..

and wu, fei and me went gasonline...

what happen there...

I really dont like to say...

Wan Kei's Birthday Party

but since they told me mostly are their BestFriends

are cannot BRING BOYFRIENDS...

in these kind of parties, boys can only do 2 things

Stick to your girfriend
Sit Far Far away...

so we just decided to sit 2 tables away..

as i don't know all her friends,

and it will be bad to..er..occupy the birthday girl..

even though Wu got tell me to sit over,

I decided to sit away...

i think she maybe want to run away from me...

and just sat there...

Then we saw that aaron like "KOALA" and keep hugging her gf..

whats Koala?

so...I thought no boy friends...so since its" THIER" Party we sat at another table..

and then

HELL BREAKED LOSS...

sat there like invisible..

they kept laughing..

joking..

while 3 of us, sat there like we don't exsist...

So what really drove me off...is there where some guys ( i don't know who they are)

come and just play with them..maybe their friends i don't know...

But they don't seem like that...they aren't even our school..

We just sat there drink and see other people having fun...

sad...

What i hoped didn't happen...

really it didn't....

she never said anything to us..while...she just keep enjoying the party..

maybe she though we having fun..but no..

I was so depress i nearly order some alcohol....

why?

INVISIBLE + 40 HOURS DIDNT SLEEP + LONELY

=== HELL

just sat there, while seeing them laughing and having a lot fun...

i keep telling me that

but as long as she happy...

its worth it....( its NOT TRUE, I AM FUCKING DEPRESS)

I Hope at least, she come over and ask us,if we want to join them..

But..like everything else that i HOPED...

IT NEVER HAPPEN!!!!!!!!!

She keep walking around playing with her friends, talking..

and everything..except coming to our table..

Thinking back, i sometimes nearly cried...

Then around 10 o'clock, we decided to pay our bill first..

and they bought out the cake...

because some of her friends want to go home..

they decided to take photo..

only that time she decided to ask me, if we want to take photo..

maybe you all think its maybe my fault that.

.i didn't join them

Ok, i want to make clear the fact that she DID invite..me..

so did her friends..

and..well...

But i though that she should have some quality time with her friends..

and i just sacrifice that chace

I thought that whats the best i didn't join them and sit far far away...

But, all this is maybe because

she just want to escape me...

I waited to the end, and she still act like i'm invisible one...

I alone waited for one hour, seeing them having fun...

and i want to talk to her..but she seems having a lot of fun

watching her..playing with her friends which mostly guys in the end..

and thinking is my decision to stay out the right one?

her friend asked me do i want to play..

i didn't say anything i just shaked my head...

I just want to talk to you...

Even in the end....i like totally emo le...

my face really really dark,

can't she ask why...

she didn't say anything..

i don't blame her..

why?cuz

Who AM I to her..

Nobody..

As i said... Alone is better then nobody

To her i'm just a nornal guy at there...

nothing more

nothing less

went home at 11, with two emotions..

sadness and hatred...

-----------------After thought------------

The question now is what should i do...

when you love someone so deep...

the only thing you get in return is sadness and a sense of lonely

writing this post and crying at the same time..

that sense of loneliness

after 41 hours

2010-01-23T23:46:00.002+08:00

41 hours

I tell you 41 hours no sleeping..is insane...
even though i'm still quite energetic, my hands keep shaking and a serious headache in my head,
SHIT LA....
and two very quite round black circles around my eyes...
haha...

But the main power runing my whole body system is sadness
SADNESS

I really want to cry already....
I totally unhappy today...

Maybe she really don't have feelings for me...
Her birthday party..i did go..but decide to sit at another table..
why?
because....
if i join them...she maybe won't be as happy as without me...
I just hope she will be happy...thats all
but i'm the one that will suffer the pain..
haha

The gift...i don't know...
I didn't got chance ask her..
do she like it...
and i quite think she dont understand the meaning of it...

I dont know....
I really hope something will happen today, but it didn't...

p/s Happy Birthday to Wan Kei..

Sleep~

2010-01-23T14:42:00.000+08:00

i want to sleep

When you didn't sleep the whole night...what it will feeling?

Headache -- your head will spin and unable to focus
Vomit -- you feeling your going to vormit
Tired Eyes -- like your eyes keep wanting to shut up
Desperate for water -- you just want to drink water!!!
Unrasional --- you do some silly things
Become retarded --- you just become a IDIOT!!

I was experiencing all the symptoms today morning, but now...only a slightly headache..
Didn't sleep at all, and msn open till 6am and i'm the only one online~ ya~
first time didnt sleep at all!!!
Busy doing something,will pose about it tomorrow...
going to mines celebrate ~ byebye

21/01/10

2010-01-21T21:21:00.001+08:00

Micro blogging

Today..SOMEONE still haven't apologize to me...
for YESTERDAY!!

Emotionally unstable today...
Damn..unhappy....
saw her 5 times today, and i just act cannot see her...
why..i dunno how to face her...
She just keep talking to her friend...
Sad....
Maybe she don't know, what she done really hurt me..
haizz...but who am i to her?
Nothing
Dont want to talk about it anymore...

NEXTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

Today normal day normal life....
was planing go to 1882 to eat 卡里云吞面, so me and lok went there
and you know what...
they didn't open.....=.= i want to eat curry..
waste our energy walk so far...

Totally hurted...

2010-01-20T21:49:00.000+08:00

No mood

I now relationship post SUCKS....and boring but

I still want to blog about it...

Today asked someone to accompany me to go to the bus station,
and she said "ok", so after school,
i try to go as fast as possible to find that person...
and she was gone...yes..gone already...told her to wait for me..
and she just walk away....
i don't think i let her wait too long..

so i tried to catch up..just by walking a bit faster.
and then they stop at the junction, she just won't wait for me..
and walk pass the junction very fast,
she actually can wait longer,
but she didn't

her friend accompany her told me that, i know she actually knew i was behind.
and just dont want to wait....
I choose anothe route, after hearing what her friend told me...
was really sad...

Then the whole journey was thinking about it,
WHY~WHY~WHY~

If you didn't seen me, then i'm ok but....
you know it, and you just don't want to wait....
WALAO Eh~~~

~~Hypothesis of why she don't wait for me(~~WHY!!!!!)

~~1) She wants me to chase after her~~ --- either she seen too much love drama or story books. If you want me to chase you you will moved slower...NEXT
~~2) She forgot about waiting for you~~ --- Impossible, as I TOLD HER TODAY!(3 hours before)
~~3) She don't want to miss the TV Drama at Home~~ --- if she need a reason to go home faster, this is it.
~~4) She wants to walk alone~~ --- She got a friend with her, until the junction.
5) She just don't want you to accompany her --- This is the answer, its harsh but its the most obvious answer.

If you don't want me to wait for you, you can just say..
if don't reply "ok" also can de ma~
why you want to make a person disappointed ?

I just don't want to lie to myself anymore....

If thats the truth, i really wish she will tell me herself..

don't make me do any speculations...

If your heart has another person OR just cannot fit another one...

Please tell me...

I will let go...

*****************************************************
Sad post....but..well...she will never read it one...XD
she don't have internet connection, and i don't think she even know i have a blog.
Will she know? i doubt it...

So...er...if you think this post is really really boring, please say..as i want to keep you happy..XP
I'll cut down on these kind of posts.

19/01/2010

2010-01-19T20:11:00.000+08:00

it hurts it really hurts...

My hand hurts and my legs hurts, the whole body is shouting in pain~~

Today, the first day bangau has sports training, and the responds..
is not good, around 20 people only....
and its was raining, heavily today..
So, we stay in Dewan PIBG...and jump..jump...jump..
High Jump(Lompat Tinggi)
and even at 110cm, i cannot jump pass....
still remember in standard 5, i was indeed better then now,
even got a bronze medal..
but now...
I CANT EVEN PASS THE 110 CM MARK!!!!!
I HATE MYSELF~...

Mi King and Wilson did well...at least they were able to jump pass the 135cm mark..
which i can't even touch it...SAD....and run around like sakai....

and keep failing and hitting myself..
now, got bruises on my elbow, feet, and waist..
and every time i touch it...it HURTS
HURTS..

heard some sad news today, maybe i'm just a doll to be played around...
haizzz.....cannot make up my mind.
Well... don't think so much and concentrate on my homework la...
Today got a lot...a lot..a lot....

I STILL HATE THAT TEACHER!!

I WANT TO SAY!!!!!

2010-01-18T18:59:00.000+08:00

silly teach = mentally unstable

Today started to really really HATE this teacher....
I HATE YOU!!!

The teacher is a bit UNSTABLE,
i know she's a good teacher, but her teaching style make people uncomfortable.
When you hear her teaching, her voice will like a rollercoaster going up and down,
and making face expressions that make no sense..
and keep asking "faham kah"?? then she will answer it herself..pro...

She teaching quite boring, can't blame her because that subject is boring....(no need to say which, only one subject is so boring) But at least she can try to make the subject more interesting..
don't say can't, I seen very good people teach that subject, and i don't seem to be sleepy...
but she acts like she just came out of mental hospital..

Suddenly she ask the class are we sleepy..and we were soooo Honest,
we said "yes" and she want the whole class to stand up....
shouldn't the teacher be the one that let us have a break..or...be a little bit funny( she always give so lame jokes) And our whole class stand like sakai for 10 minutes...

So..i was damn sleepy today, yesterday slept around 5 hours, and my brain power all used to think about KOKOs....so i keep yawning the whole class....and she scolded me...and ask why i'm yawing...
isn't it obvious, the answer is "I AM SLEEPY"...walao...why ask such silly questions...

At least those are maybe my fault, later she start returning our homework,and she
started to scold a lot lot of people and saying them bodoh...
BODOH...if i didnt remember wrong, you know what's their mistake?
because the question ask A, they gave the answer B...
and she ask did they copy the answers...they answered "yes"
and she say
"Why you so stupid, at least copy those that have the right answer"
OMG.....
they she say Bryan was stupid...and..actually bryan only got 2 wrong out of 8..
2 !! i got 3 and she scolded bryan badly..
And keep saying we're stupid....
haizz....

This is my personal opinion, maybe other people think she's funny or what ever....
bla~bla~bla~
maybe its just a sudden urge hating her...but for now, yes
But....this is MY BLOG, NOT YOUR'S

Am i noisy?

2010-01-17T23:50:00.001+08:00

I salute you~

Today someone actually say i'm noisy
NOISY!!!!
OMG~~~
It shocked me.....

It was a ice breaking season for my Buddhist class...
and were siting in groups,
and i just want to know her better..
(its a "her", so its a girl)
why interested? because she's same school as me and is just form 4.
So..as she don't know me, so i ask her some normal questions la..
like, what class la..this and that..
then she went BERSERK!!!

and say...

"you say enough or not, you very noisy la"

OMG...i just want to know you....
and she was angry the whole day....

It shocked me, never got a girl so brave,
say that kind of thing to me...
not to meantion, we not even friends...
(only a few girls say me like that before, i think was Chyn only XD)
To that girl::
I SALUTE YOU~~~~~( i give you a medal for it)

Ok, i admit the fact i'm a bit childish...
and i love to talk..really..love..
specially GOSSIP...

Maybe i gave her a bad impression...
Maybe i should show a bit more responsibility..
I just lack that responsibility...

A gift for someone

2010-01-16T23:59:00.000+08:00

why present are always so hard to choose?

What to buy for a girl as a birthday present??
Someones birthdays is coming up...and...
I still dont know what to do....

SO these are my options:::
**things that people will give as presents

Bag --- Not going to happen. how i know IF she will like that bag.....
Clothing --- Man should never buy this for a girl
Shoes --- Same as above
Photo Frame --- Tooo simple
Flowers --- 3 roses are RM21++..how about 99?
video full of happy birthdays --- used by someone else ALREADY~
Cake --- If you want that girl to gain weight...
laptop --- If only i'm the son of bill gates
portrait of her --- I suck at art
book --- she said she dont like to read....
Necklaces --- Maybe but dont know la...
Ring --- I'm NOT going to propose la
A birthday party --- she already "abducted" by her friends
Bring her to see movie --- same as above
Myself --- she will throw me into LongKang
A Diary --- I think she dont write diaries
A full course meal --- go hotel a?...not enough this $$
Write a song for her --- I suck in singing
Do something special --- I also know la, but what is special?
Give her an original CD of her idol ---ok la...but not special
A soft toy, a.k.a Teddy Bear ---I dont know....
$$$$$$$$$ --- not every one love $$,
A pot --- ??? she's not likely in gardening....
A picture of me --- why should she keep a photo of me...
A Mirror --- Special mirror? later she become the queen in Snow White...
Pen --- those special metalic pens? I got one..but don't seems to use it at all...
A T-shirt that you wrote things on it --- For a guy, maybe but a girl? THIS IS A NONO
Those solar powered plant that will shake --- I see those on CARS, she dont have a car....
A pensil case --- I need one more then she needs it...
My heart --- ..........missing since 2009

I dont know what to give her as a present..
I'm scared that she won't like my present
and think i didn't put enough effort into it....

Any suggestions???

A boring day...(ignore this post plz)

2010-01-16T23:17:00.000+08:00

仔男

I really become "仔男(people who dont like go out and social)" le..
Today sit in front of computer like 12 hours doing nothing except seeing movie and playing computer...
what i done today....

1000 wake up
1030 starting sit in front of computer
1100 seeing anime - 图书馆战争
1230 when out eat McDonald
1330 come back sit in front of computer again
1400 start watching "Fringe" and "Grey Anatomy"
1630 went seeing a lot of people's blog
1730 start playing GTA 4
1900 beat the game
1930 continue playing
2230 just finish...

Conclusion::
I sucks~

WTF....do anyone see anything about "books"???
i should be studying, BUT? i just sat in front of the computer the whole day...

sad...

Operation : Pikachu

2010-01-15T21:26:00.000+08:00

pikapi pi ka chu~

I know the name sucks..haha...but i just want to say about it

PIKACHU

what is pikachu???

that ELECTRIC MOUSE in POKEMON...

So what this have to do with the post???

well...because one of my "frend" (call him A here)

somehow got "electric shock" by a Pikachu..

so...what i'm trying to say pikachu is a girl

and a very cute girl...

Conclusion:

My Fren A 被 Pikachu电到

Why choose "Pikachu", because we don't know her name in the first place,

and our first nickname for her was

发电场(electric station) because she SHOCK my frend..=.=

changed to

"Pikachu" because its cuter..XP

So, its just been 3 days since my fren was " electric shocked"

and well...he's not normal anymore (sorry)

And very unlucky, none of us know who she is..

we only know her class

So, we went do some detective work

and my fren already got her handphone number.

Somehow, she seems to be a very popular girl in her form,

and quite a number of people know her...

And when talk about her,

he seem very excited..

and

today afternoon, we went "pokemon hunting" around school...

haha

=.=

So lucky~

Dunno they are SMSing or not, but seems unlikely la...

my frend is a bit shy..XD

Don't think anything will happen la...

But feel happy for him,

at least he can talk out of the shadows,

not like me.....

If he want to chase her...hope you luck...

p/s seems somehow i very like Pikachu i mean the game character...cute~

14/01/2010

2010-01-14T20:34:00.001+08:00

Micro blogging again.....

nothing big happen today,
but....i still got an Chinese Essay need to finish...
and i still siting in front of the computer...XD

I really should consider what i'm going to BE this year?
be social, really social...
or run around talking the whole day...

p/s
Saw the news about Haiti today..
the worst place to happen earthquake..
and malaysian press dont seem to care about it..=.=
Hope the deathtoll will BE LOW..
they asstimated 100,000-200,000 or more
China ShiChuan Earthquake only 80,000
not to meantion haiti is one of the poorest countries....

13/01/2010

2010-01-13T23:28:00.000+08:00

Bottle

Today done something stupid actually....
I..err...."destroy" wu's present..Solie~~~
His friend buy from taiwan de...but...
if that called present then i really go die le...
What was the present??

***CENSORED***18SX******

***CENSORED*************

***if i write i will end up in jail..XD *****

that lo~XD

So..how i "destroy" it?
just drop to the ground...and it was a glass bottle...
and it break...
the thing drop out..
and i have to pick it up..
dun know how many people saw it..quite embarrassing...
haizzz..so
end of story...

So...Sorry again....

p/s wu
I feel very sorry...and i suddenly thought a way...
I buy the same thing for you at valentine day..
haha

No time at all

2010-01-12T23:11:00.000+08:00

no time

No time at all, so another micro blogging....

so much homework...

chemistry...sejarah..math...add.math...chinese...english...

I dont know i will survive to the end of the year or not..

more worst....

i still got a large bunch of KOKO..need to attend...

Today...leave home at 7, come home at 7...

went KL tuition alone, but still got some accompany..thanks..

One more thing....

Do i deserve to be a leader?

Today i somehow step on a path that have no returns...

I dream of it, but in reality i know its hard....

now....HOW....

I just have to do my best..

THE BEST I CAN OFFER...

A CHANCE..or you will regret it..

haha...

Bangau lets GAMBATEH together.....

@nd Week of School

2010-01-11T21:53:00.001+08:00

tired again..

This year going to be bad and busy....
homework is LOADED and A LOT..
My class is high up in the sky..
and
I got
KOKO la...
STUDY la..
TUITION la....
tired..
3 days continued tuition...
sad...

Déjà vu

2010-01-09T21:48:00.004+08:00

Ever felt that you know her, but you never met her before?

Deja vu....
Quote from Wikipedia

Déjà vu (pronounced /ˈdeɪʒɑː ˈvuː/ ( listen); French: [deʒa vy] ( listen), "already seen"; also called paramnesia, from Greek παρα "para," "near, against, contrary to" + μνήμη "mnēmē," "memory") or promnesia, is the experience of feeling sure that one has witnessed or experienced a new situation previously (an individual feels as though an event has already happened or has happened in the recent past), although the exact circumstances of the previous encounter are uncertain. The term was coined by a French psychic Émile Boirac (1851–1917) in his book researcher, L'Avenir des sciences psychiques ("The Future of Psychic Sciences"), which expanded upon an essay he wrote while an undergraduate. The experience of déjà vu is usually accompanied by a compelling sense of familiarity, and also a sense of "eeriness", "strangeness", or "weirdness". The "previous" experience is most frequently attributed to a dream, although in some cases there is a firm sense that the experience "genuinely happened" in the past.^[1]

^{Have you ever have the experience when you see something, you feel familiar, like you know it..}

^{Thats what people call Deja Vu, a odd feeling that seem you know it, but in reality you never meet it.}

^{like you see someone, you feel like you know her, but you have never meet before...}

^{that kind of feeling...}

^{So what happen?}

^{this happen last thursday,}

^{around 4.30pm}

^{coming back from KL, soh and i was at Kuala Lumpur KTM Station,}

^{and the train arrive, and we enter the train...}

^{We were moving to the center of the train,}

^{and suddenly it happen....}

^{I saw this girl around 18-23 years old...}

^{she was with her friend, and i totally freezed.}

^{my mind keep telling me i know her in some way, but...}

^{the truth is "we" never meet before..}

^{for like 5 seconds, i was unresponsive..}

^{untill i was pushed by some other person}

^{That feeling was ODD...really ODD...}

^{i experience Deja vu before, but never that strong,}

^{that i know her in some way...}

^{like we meet before...}

^{Her face was familiar, very familier...}

^{thinking back..her face isn't anything close to people i know. She aren't very very beautiful. She didn't wear anything, that will specially attract other people's attention...}

^But...

^{i was attracted to her, no like 一见钟情 but that i knew}^her..

^{I didn't have a chance to speak to her, nor "observer" her}

^{When reach serdang, i just walked away....}

^{If she was like very beautiful/cute/sexy maybe that can be explained...}

^{but it do not fell into any category....}

^{The feeling was soo strong..}

^{I still remember it...}

^{I want to believe, maybe in the past life, we once meet...}

^{I believe in these things, karma..life cycle...}

^{but its faith that do their things...}

Tired

2010-01-09T02:14:00.000+08:00

tired

One week just passed...
and i just sat in front of the computer and see 10++ episode of Fringe
for 8 hours..
very tired now...
2 am in the morning....
want to sleep well..
but i'm sure i will wake up 12 tomorrow
thinking of micro-blogging in the future...

Text books..

2010-01-07T18:14:00.000+08:00

our bags are so heavy...

the start of the school year..and you know what.....

my class is on the highest in the whole school..
4 stories....high....
and our "beloved" Penolong Kanan(PK) want ALL of US to
BRING TEXTBOOKS...even thought..the teachers WILL not use it...
we still need to bring the FUCKING textbooks...
yes...the textbooks are heavy like shit....
the floating class are even worst...

But why bring those text books..Do you need use Moral textbooks??
who use it!!!!!!
then..Mathematik...work book is 100% better then textbook...
and you want the best of the student..
then teach at a better way...

She say work book is just to support..but you see physic, chemistry..
the text book sucks...if we use it...we all fail our science already...

so...why you don't let your teacher choose what is best for the student..
so.......
the text books are just going to kill us.....

1st Day of School

2010-01-04T20:03:00.000+08:00

Are school boring?I hope not

So..first day of school year 2010..

the first thing you will notice in the school is that,

there is A LOT people standing near the door.

mostly form 3 girls....

WTF...it was raining and those girl still stand there like that kisah one...

even funny is on the left is chinese, and the other side is indian...

and the whole school is packed with people....since our school has 4000 people this year..

and a lot are...err..problematic...

So hardly got time to step into my class today..
and my class is 4 floors above ground...
how are we going to go up go down everyday...
my leg will break..

and for some unknown reason for 5 years in a row...
I'm monitor again.....
Form 1 - assistant
Form 2 - assistant
Form 3 - Monitor
Form 4 - assistant
Form 5 - Monitor....
Monitor work SUCKS...really SUCKS!!!
why?
reason
1) Majalah....(go find sponsors, design...do)
2) Performance ( class compertition, papan kenyataan...soso)
3) Trips ( need organize trip for class de)
4) No rewards (you be scolded badly daily but you never get anything in return..)
haizz...can't say no anymore...

today went out do SPBT work, came back and saw the blackboard...
Ketua tan xiang zhi..
=.=
save me~~~~~

Even better things happen
our class (5 Daisi 4)
Teacher change a lot compare to last year,
now..
most teachers are very HARDWORKING..
no way...they say form 4 and 5 has the same teacher,
but you know what....
all change....now
OMG....

SO...i left my bag at class and went out doing SPBT work,
and you know what...
So i went back class to get my bag..
and its nearing the last period....
(it was Pn.Tan's period)
I was about to enter..
and she say
"no people in this class is free"
WALAO EH~~~~~
I'm in this class de eh, and i was totally stunned...
went away laughing..
she don't let me enter, i continue long gai lo~ XD
only got my bag after school......

Conclusion...
this year most likely going to be "interesting"

Starting of School Year 2010

2010-01-03T15:02:00.000+08:00

Who aren't scared of death, when 5 years are like 5 minute

Form 5 already, life past so fast,
its was like yesterday was stil form 2.
now..we are already the oldest in the school....

So ,form 5...the last year in secondary school.
and its going to be a though year...
SPM..
SPM..
SPM..
I cannot fail myself anymore...
one mistake..i'll regret it my whole life.

UPSR can tak kesah...
PMR can play play..
But
SPM...
your life depends on it..
what you will do in the future...
depends on that single sheet of result...
So..gambateh lo~

then every year there is KOKO...
what to do...
but this year i just want to be happy, and less stress...
dont involve myself in too much things...
just senang senang lo~
I'm not so ambitious anymore...
a lot of crazy dreams but..what for?
what i want to prove has been proven...
But what the problem now is my personalty...
So...
this year...
I want to improve myself..
In all ways i can....

And i think about being SINGLE this year...
FOR SALE, ANY ONE WANTS ME???

relationships are driving people crazy..like my poor friend WU..
sad
just kidding...XP

New POLL!!!

2010-01-01T22:16:00.001+08:00

finished the new poll...
hope you will like the new one
whats poll...
see that orange thing???
thats it....

Feelings

2010-01-01T03:08:00.000+08:00

Lonely~ I'm so lonely~~~~I'm nobody~~~

Today is the first day in 2010,
but just feeling lonely again,
not from friends, but love....
A lot of people, they can live without people loving...
a lot of them can...
But for some unkown reason...I can't

I'm like hunger for love
I hope
someone can support me
someone can care for me
someone make me happy when i'm sad
someone i can truthly trust
someone can sms with me...
someone i can share my story
someone that i have feelings for....

But now i feel like the whole world hates me..

thinking back...

she never made me happy before...

she....

getting over an't so easy...
maybe i have to convice myself

She an't coming back for you

it never happen...even you want it happen

It will never happen..even you hope it to happen

your not a cupit, you cannot make her love you

your not a love god, she will not simply fall for you...

Don't believe other people, she already told you its impossible

Don't believe your mind, as your mind plays tricks

She an't going to change her mind

Even if you wait for her for eternity

I dont believe she will turn around and find you....

I'm that kind of guy that actually think i can make every girl fall for me..=.=
its called overconfidence or ego.
I'm scared if i let go, she will change her mind...
Even she say it cannot happen, i actually think it will
BUT..its a lie to myself
I lieing to myself...
I cannot accept the fact that she just doesn't love me...
I cannot accept the fact that we an't going to be together...
I cannot accept the fact that the girl that i love so much,
DON'T LOVE ME!!!!!
ego.....

Even now...i still think she like me..and just dont want to be together...!!!!!!!!
ITS A DAMN FUCKING LIE!
LIE!!
LIE!!!
LIE!!!!
LIE!!!!!
LIE!!!!!!!

IT NOT GOING TO HAPPEN! I HAVE TO TELL MYSELF!

To all

2010-01-01T00:10:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry for everything i fucked up

To all ::

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Happy New Year!!!!!!

i'm sure its 12.00am
wish everyone has an exciting 2009, and 2010 will be better!!!

for me 2009, was one hell of a year..
its was a rollercoaster, drops, rise...
will talk about it next time....

So...new year is a new begining....

for 2009.....
I done a lot of silly things
I done a lot of mistake
I make a lot of people angry
I made a lot of people hate me
I made a lot of mess for other people
I hurt a lot of peopel
and
I just fucked up my life...XP

To everyone
no matter who you are
what you are

I just want to say

"Sorry, can we start again?"

So
Hope i can do better this year

Sincerely
XZ

Glamorous Movie Award by me 2009

2009-12-30T23:11:00.004+08:00

Movie are form Heaven

Glamorous Movie Award..!! ya.....

Movies are great..better then a lot of things,

And as 2009 is at its end, its time tooooo

SEE which movie is the best in 2009

List of movie that i seen this year

Hannah Montana : The Movie

17 Again

X-Men Origins : Wolverine

Star Trek

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

Angels & Demons

Terminator Salvation

Night at the Museum : Battle of the Smithsonian

Land of the Lost

The Taking of Pelham123

Moon

Transformer : Revenge of the Fallen

Ice Age : Dawn of the Dinosaurs

Public Enemies

The Ugly Truth

G-Force

G.I. Joe: The Rise of Cobra

These are 2009 release. I seen more movies this year then ever.

But since this year is 2009 so....i only consider 2009 release.

MOST UNSPECTED MOVIE

this is the movie that done very better then expectation.

Nomination

Tsunami at Haeundae

Why this movie? I was bored that they and when seeing that movie for fun. Totally didn't expected what i was going to see. In the end the movie was fantastic. The most heart warming movie i seen this year. the only flow is the lack of Visual Effect.

The taking of Pelham 123

Yes, it was 12pm in the night, and i just finish downloading,

I saw this movie got a lot of seed so i downloaded for fun and since its saturday i watch it. The next thing i know, the movie ended and it was 2 am. Danzel Washington did a great job, and the film was very very enjoyable.

NO more nomination

So who will win????

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(Drum Roll~~~~)

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(opening the envelope)

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(start crying)

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Tsunami at Haeundae

Reason:: The movie nearly make me cry how cannot i choose it?

MOST DISAPPOINTING MOVIE

for those movies that are totally over-hyped and overrated

Nomination

Transformer : Revenge of the fallen

I want to see a good movie when going into the theater, but went out disappointing. The cast is good but acting sucks. The whole movie is just about seeing robots fighting. I actually believe that robots appearing time is more then human.!!! the story is make just for the sequal. And too much robots, the humor isn't there.

2012

both these movie has a common point, You see the trailer and you have the rush to see in the theater.You think it will be good. You bought a ticket. Went in to the theater. And come out feeling that the movie SUCKS!!!! and you wasted your hard earn money.

and the winner is

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(opening envelope)

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(envelope missing!!)

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(found again)

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2012

Reason :the movie is totally overrated!!! Till now i still don't understand why they think 2012 is a nice movie. Yes, the visual effect is OK, but it isn't till the level that you have to keep saying wah~wah~wah~. The story sucks. The cast sucks. The trailer is good. THE MOVIE SUCKS!

BEST STORY

the movie that has the best story

Nomination

District 9

We always think when alien come to earth, we will be killed. But district 9 is about Aliens taking refugee at Earth. Setting is already that great. The Story folds out nicely. And we got a sad but appropriate ending. That's why it deserve this nomination.

Angel & Demon

I never read the story, the movie was the first time. And i was TOTALLY shock by the sudden turn of event in the movie. In just 10 minutes, the Hero becomes the Enemy. Dan Brown really wrote a great story.

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(Opening envelope again)

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(lazy to read)

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...and the best story is

District 9

Alien always win, we know it... Story about

BEST VISUAL EFFECT

the movie that has the best visual effect

Nomination

Avatar

A movie that use CGI but still look like real life. OMFG!!you cannot say, they forest the grass

The aliens. Everything.

2012

even the story sucks, the cast sucks, but we do have to admit the fact the,

CGI is better then some. It deserve a normination.

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drum rolliing

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no need to say la

AVATAR

reason: who can win this except it?

BEST PICTURE

the best movie i seen this year

before the nomination. I wanted to talk about the way i see movies. I like to skip, when its boring i skip. So if a movie don't make me fastforward, its a great movies. and this year, only about 5 downloads, make me don't fastforward. So..i have a very sensitive taste

Nomination

Tsunami at Haeundae

How can a movie that nearly make me cry didn't get nominate

Avatar

Maybe the only movie that has graphic that blow you away

The Taking of Pelham 123

As i say before, a good movie is a movie that don't make me fastforward. this done the job.

District 9

A good movie that won't make you fast forward....the story are just wicked!!

And the winner

is..

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(opening envelope)

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(hand stuck in the envelope)

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(envelope on fire)

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(envelope drop to the ground)

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(picked it up)

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(a sexy girl went by)

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(a bomb drop on my head)

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(i'm killed)

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and finally

the winner of the Picture Awards

AVATAR

its a tough choose. Its Between Avatar and District 9. In terms of storyline, District 9 is just mind blowing. The visual graphic isn't bad. But Avatar is just so beautiful....and OMG, i its hard, i actually think about 5 minute.

and i love that movie....XD