R.I.P

R.I.P

Have you ever thought of someone died just in front of your eyes??

Have you ever see someone just suddenly died in front of your eyes??

This Chinese New Year just end....

yes...just ended....

Today went to see my grandfather at the Hospital again...

quite serious...heartbeat around 130 and seriously dehydrated...

His breathing was rapid, and you can see his stomach keep moving..up and down..

The Hospital is Hospital Banting

A government hospital which is near to the hometown...

The only reason my grandfather is there..is because its near home...

So...that was 12pm....

Went back around 1pm and have McDonald....

Chatted at relatives Home..

then went to the hospital again..

this was around 4.30pm...

4.20pm

the pulse rate already...dropped till 118..which is a good sign..

as normal pulse rate is around 60-80....

although his breathing is still rapid...

4.50pm

the pulse further drop till 108, and his breathing although still rapid have seen signs of recovery...

and the nurse came to give some medicine, and he injected it directly into a tube which connect

to the stomach...

and everthing seems fine...

5.10pm

pulse rate dropped till 102, and we were quite happy as the breathing has slowed down..

and we just sat there...smsing..and reading books...

5.20pm

I was just walking around...and suddenly..

My Grandfather....maked a loud sound, like gapping of oxygen, and wannted to vomit...

then nothing...

TOTALLY NOTHING...his stomach has stopped moving...

He wasn't want to vomit...but...his heart rate stopped..

the ECG has slowly becoming a straight line...

his mouth was still moving, like trying to breath..

his leg move a bit..but maybe was a reflex..

we called the nurse, and the nurse just slowly walked here..

5.21pm

the nurse reach the bed, and ask what happen..

surely there is something wrong, and we told them he stopped breathing..

she slowly called another nurse, and they just walked slowly to get the blood pressure machine

5.23pm

the nurse cannot get the pulse, so she went to called the doctor..

and the doctor isn't in the wad..and i don't know hell where she is....

the nurse called the doctor by phone..

other nurse just stand there...waiting

5.24pm

the nurse on the phone..and laughing..

i don't know WHAT SO DAMN FUNNY ABOUT SOMEONE DIEING 

other nurse just stand around doing like checking only

NO CPR

5.25pm

the nurse finish calling the doctor..

and start gearing up..and just putting machinese here and there...

STILL NO CPR

My father already started to shout at them, why no CPR..

and they say they are waiting for the doctor..

5.27pm

only now, the doctor reach there..

and only them..he started to check only

yes check...

NO CPR

5.29pm

only now...she began CPR..

but its too late

5.35 pm

announce dead.....

I know how to do CPR..

I know a bit about medic..

BUT...

when in a real life situation our mind just become blank..

We constantly say we know what to do...

but,

that 10 minutes...is like a second to me..

We never know what to do..

Only when we finally remembered..

its already... too late..

We say we will do CPR in those situation..

but...I just forgot...totally...

He is my grandfather...

I just stand there...watching..him

thats why government hospital SUCKS~

the following 3 days, won't be near a single computer..

May My Grandfather Rest in Peace